2 years and back with some updates

It's been too long~~~ 2 years since my last post.. oh wow! Many things changed... Yes, i left the art studio to embark my business dream.. the dream is still on but i gotta myself 2 more.. a full time job and yet another business venture! This is the exciting part! Updates of these 2 years: What changed: 1. Venture into renovation industrial 2. Venture into an MNC business - the most exciting of all! 3. Appeared on National TV and Newspaper - For the good of course! 4. I lost 12kg! ^.^v 5. My younger bro got married to his girlfriend of 8 years 6. My little Nephew, Julien Nai is born What remains unchange: 1. Still driving the same car - Nissan Latio 2. Still single and available 3. Still saving up to bring my parents for overseas trips Been through alot these 2 years.. witnessed many life changed, went through many life changing experience. Found what i really wanted and have been striving and working very hard towards fulfilling my dreams and goals. The route isn't easy, but whatever hardship, whatever it takes, we have to persist on... till the day we succeed, life will be completed. I've learnt alot alot.. from all the people i met along the way. I'm really glad and find myself really lucky to have meet so many wonderful people, mentors and made new friends who really dote on me alot, treating me like family. Thank you for teaching me so much, so much of your life experienced shared with. All these i appreciated deeply in my heart. There's still a long long way to go.. i know my route will still be tough, but like i mentioned. I will persist on no matter what. There sure will be down times, times i feel lost, but i know whatever happens, there will be someone out there to guide me back on track. To all those people i met in these 2years and those who were with me all along: Thank you for being part of my life... Thank you for having me into your life... I will continue to grow and learn... I will make it! reported by : small eye Eileen (-v-)...

Embark to my dream

I can't believe I did that! Resigned from my job and concentrate fully on my newly set-up business. But seriouusly, I'm having doubt in myself now. Am I too rush? Was it an action on impluse? Been at home for almost a month, sending out emails proposal to mgetany, hoping to get some response and deals. Things aren't easy! It takes times, and i really wonder how long more can i hang on... Savings can't last long and seriously need some money coming in. Giving up is not an option this time and success is a must! Ideas has to keep coming and my passion and drive mustn't die! I have to do it. I need the support and helping hands, but most importanly is my determination! Jiayou! reported by : small eye Eileen (-v-)...

飛行少年

人生中，有许多的挑战，许多的选择。。。你为你的人生选择了哪一条路，遇到了哪些挑战呢？ 在网络里，无意见发现了《飛行少年》的一部偶像剧。和一般偶像剧不同的是，它述说的并不是男女之间的情情爱爱，而是一群被社会放弃的少年。 故事主角：一个刚出狱，背负黑色过往的黑道份子，为完成姐姐的遗愿 一位抱着热忱，开朗的社工 一个刚回国，单纯天真的富家公子，不想过着母亲所安排的人生，一心向往自由 一位精明能干的特助 四位主角到了学园，成为了辅导老师。。。 他们因不同的目的来到这里，因为相同的信念携手同行 学园里的这群孩子，因父母的失养，失职而让他们产生偏差行为的非行少年，他们是非常行为的“非行少年”。。。 在挫折中坚持理想，在失败中学习坚强。 爱情才正要开始蔓延，考验却立即逼迫降临。 爱于坚持能让他们战胜软弱的心，带着梦想振翅飞翔？ 学园是一所收留一群被社会放弃的少年，他们因家庭的问题，被父母抛弃，得不到关爱，在人生路上失去了方向，对自己的未来失去了信心。没有关爱，没有方向的他们，用自己的方式生活，行为举止在社会的眼中是“叛逆”，“坏孩子”，“歹子”。。。走在社会边缘的他们被称为“非行少年”。。。 学园坚持不放弃任何一个孩子，以关爱鼓励，努力的把这些孩子从社会边缘拉回，想帮这些孩子走会正途，放下心防，希望每一个孩子都能拥有一个美好的未来，从新回到社会的怀抱。 一个“独轮车环岛”的计划，希望让孩子们建立信心，让社会见证孩子们的毅力和勇气。孩子们有了梦想，为梦想奋斗，为自己努力，让社会看见他们不是“叛逆”，“坏孩子”，“歹子”，得到社会的接纳。 独轮车看似普通，但它需要的是勇气，决心，毅力，不怕跌倒，不怕失败才能征服的一项运动。每个孩子们经过了无数次的跌倒，失败，以自己的决心于毅力坚持到最后。间中解开了彼此间的心结，团结一致完成了他们的梦想，让社会看见他们的改变，从新接受了他们。他们不再是“非行少年”而是 “飛行少年”。带着爱于梦想飛行的少年，勇士！ 看了这部剧后，我非常的感动。我也问了自己，我的梦想是什么？我的人生，我想要的是什么？我的方向是什么？我还没找到答案。。。我一直是个被动的人，都是等待被推才动，人家建议我应该这样所以我这样，人家说我适合这样所以我这样。。。一直觉得，这样的人生也没什么不好的啊。。。可是看了《飛行少年》后才发现，我一直都是在为了别人想，为了别人做。我自己要的是什么？我是该好好的规划一下我自己的人生。。。 有空的话，不妨去看看这部非常好看又有意义的《飛行少年》吧！然后想想，你的人生，你规划还了吗？还有什么梦想还没完成？有什么是被你遗忘的呢？ 你的人生要加油哦！！！ http://youtu.be/UCMmv-AD9Kg reported by : small eye Eileen (-v-)...

In a blink of an eye, 2011 is coming to an end.. OMG!!! How can times flies so fast????

A Recap of wat happened in 2011...

1. Permed my hair for the first time
2. Lost my granduncle to cancer jus 3 days before CNY
3. Bought my iPhone 4
4. Went to Macau & ZhuHai again with my JieMei
5. Chop off my long long hair
6. Join Seng Poh RC
7. My SingTel Idol got married :)
8. My long time crush got married :(
9. Resigned from Genius R Us
10. Started work in Art Speaks Studio
11. Celebrated Mummy's 48th Bday @ Golden Spoon Restaurant
12. Bought a new HP for Mummy
13. Bro Long passed Class 3
14. Lost my dear Sony Ericsson W995
15. Celebrated Daddy's 52th Bday @ Teochew Restaurant Huat Kee with surprise
16. Bought a netbook for Daddy
17. Reunited with my dearest Quest Badminton Team
18. Afamosa trip with my team
19. Welcome little nephew Rayden to our family - Cousin Ivy's
20. Celebrated Xmas @ home with my team - BBQ
21. Celebrated my 24th bday - 1 surpise during Xmas BBQ by team and another K session with wheelies @ Cash Studio
22. 1 year of car ownership :)
23. Yet to lose weight nor found a boyfriend...
24. Gonna celebrate e new @ Tiong Bahru Park Countdown Party!

That's my 2011... Please bring me a better 2012 okie!!!
Love u still 2011 <3

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Happening in Nov Dec...

In Nov, I started a new job, helping my friend at her newly opened art studio with some marketing & admin stuff... everything starts from zero again :)

Dec, celebrated my daddy's 52th birthday! I guess it was a awesome one! I cracked my head for this!!! Hunt high and low for a good place for e meal, the present was one headache to0... despite those headache, i manage to made it a great one for my daddy!!!

Dinner at Teochew Restaurant Huat Kee @ Amoy Street, (he loved it as we are Teochew, and the food served are authenic Teochew food :), bday present, a Acer netbook (he was damm happy abt it!!! "Finally I hav a computer!!!" he shouted! and tt's e begining of us - his kids, as his teachers!and 1 more thing which really made him damm happy tt day was-- suprise arranged by me!!!!I secretly invited 2 of my cousins (his favourite niece & nephew) and their mum to join us at the restaurant. I asked them to go strg to the restaurant so tt my dad will be surprise and YES he had a BIG SURPRISE and u can see the BIG SMILE ON HIS FACE!!!
I'm so proud of myself! :D... at the end of the day my mum said " it will b a bigger surprise if u bring a boyfriend home!" .. err.. Mummy, not tt i dun wan, but it doesn come jus lik tt :(

orite, some pic from the celebration :D





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Need to lose FATSSS!!

I'm putting on weights!!! Shit la... how??? I seriously nid to lose wieghts, if not sure left on shelf liao!!! OH no!!!

My dad say, eat lesser la, dun eat rice! But how to when he alwas cook so much n so much rice! Dun eat them, Mum will complain say alwaya have left over!!! Arghhh!!!


Bro Long passed his TP today, 1st thing he did when he came home is to grab my car key n drove my car.. He become our chauffuer for the night when we went for our badminton game... haha.. one more person to drive the car le...

This is only Day 1 after my resignation... spend it on RC meeting for renovation plan, tidyin my warerode, drove my dad to drill his bowling ball, meet Leslie & Connie for dinner, Badminton session, supper, home... What am I suppose to do tml leh??? BORING leh!!! Feel like playing badminton, but dun think anyone is available... catch a movie? who to accompany me leh? Go shopping?? hmm... aiya, really dunu wat to do leh! Worst worst, my mum will ask me stay home n clean up the house!!! :(

Terence was bored, called me to chat.. listend to all his stories.. knew a different side of him... haha... I'm oways the listening ears to others.. thank you for trusting me :)

Now, back to e same question... wat to do tml???




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Goodbye Genius~

TOday marks my last of day of service with Genius R Us after 1.5 years!

Throughout my stay, i've learnt alot, been thru alot, seen alot, made alot of frenz (i luv this e most!) haha...

i really glad that i have always been of good terms with all my colleague, be it the young girls or the aunties, the parents or the kids, the neighbour and their kids...

Im really touch by some of the word mentioned to me...

One of the parent, Marian (James' Mummy), my regular customer. She has full of praise for me! Always buy me nice foodies to eat, (best part is a whole box of mooncake during mid-autumm! Goodness!). She keep saying my boss no good la, nv think of retaining me... shuld die die oso retain me ma. she say im good cuz i teach well, treat the kids very well, fun, hardworking and always help my boss to market her biz even when i'm have tendered i still do...


And the partner of the edu centre nxt door - Samuel. He purposely stopped me, ran out of his centre jus to say wat he wanna say to me. He said he and his wife has always appreciated wat i have contributed, be it teaching his son, playing with his son etc... they felt that i have this very strong 人缘,everyone jus likes me. and my working attitude is very good, treat the kids very well, very hardworking, do everything nicely for my boss... He said "we have eyes to see" and the most touching word he used is ... he say "We really feel that u r an ASSETS!"
GOODNESS~!!! I'm an Assets???? WOW! I've nv get this in my life! This is e best i had ever hear!!!

Im really glad that i receive so much praise, appreciation and recognition from the ppl ard me...

Though till the very last moment, my boss still did not praise me for my work, nor mention any thing that i have contributed well or did well or the company actually appreciated my service. wat she said was more like she need a staff... ya, i jus feel it tt way.. she need a staff, no appreciation shown... ok well, there is, she bought 2 t-shirt from me from downstair Cotton On during her lunch earlier.

I still thank her for tt though.

Anyway, I;m really happy for wat i hav received from the other out there who really appreciated my effort! Thank you all!

I will really really miss all of you!

all my staffs: (past & present) Winifred, PoiXin, Audrey, Melissa, Aretha, ShunMin, Samuel, Joel, Jethro, Dennis, Abigail, Charmaine, Jane, Lee Ling, Shi Juan, Galvin, Samantha, Eileen Sim, Alison, Jolene etc... Aunty Ng, AUnty Siew Hoon, Aunty Quek.

neighbour & kids: CMA - Fong, Kho, Kai Wei, Study Place - Mr & Mrs Low, Natalie, Mr & Mrs Samuel , Sean, MindChampReading - Esther Yeong, Evangline

the lovely kids: Cynthia & Chloe, Clarabelle, Marian, her sis and all 5 kids, Sarah & Mum, Grace & Mum, alot alot more!!!

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR LOVE FOR ME!!!
I LOVE YOU TOO!!!
ALl the memories shall stay with me forever!






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The Legend ~

Was so excited about havin my leave approved to attend the Ex-QTSS Badminton School Team Gathering!!! Went on to QTSS website to have a look... and I saw this!



a closer look...


Yes, the QUEST BAdminton Legend - Wynn Li!!! OMG! Wat on earth is his picture doing on the PE dept page? Is he a teacher in QTSS now??? Goodness!!!

First met him during my Sec 1 Orientation Camp, he was a senior from Sec 3, my group I/C, taking care of my group...He was really fun to be with.. I joined Badminton team later to form the 1st batch of girls team in Quest. He was the captian of the boys team then and he played really well, excellent!!!

Well, but since he is already in Sec 3, already preparing for his O Level hence attend little training den (den again, he dun nid to attend training oso la, he's too good liao!)

But whenever he appear, wow, he's like the god! everyone see him like worship him~~~ I saw his game, the movement, the way he played, esp. his jump smash! OMG!!!

Was just toking about him during last week badminton session with Leslie and Connie, and I saw this picture on the website!

Stunning, he still look so young?!?! Wonder how's his skills are now? (He used to be Top 16 of Singapore Pliot Pen Cup!) hmmm...

So looking forward to our badminton gathering! If only we could get him to join us and have a good game with him :)

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再见！

一切都结束了！真的结束了！

也许一开始就是个错，也许根本就没开始。。。不管是什么，这一切都已成为我身命中最重要，也最难忘的一段故事。

曾经充满怀疑，曾经充满期待，曾经充满希望，曾经充满欢笑。所有的曾经，最终还是曾经，并没成真.我以为真的会有美梦成真，会有王子和灰姑娘的故事。原来现实并非如此。。。

那么多年了，我以为我会等到，以为我们会有发展，但最终还是没有。我以为我放下了，放弃了，想通了，看开了，但原来我没有。你一直都在。。。

今天，我明白了，我一直都没放弃过你，没忘记过。可是也在今天，我不得不放弃，忘记，想通。。。因为你已属于另一个人。那个幸运者不是我。。。

虽让无奈，还是要必须放下你。。。不过，我不能答应我会忘了你，因为你已深深的住进我心里的某一个角落。我会试着努力的把你放下。。。

祝福你和你刚新婚的妻子。。。



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我比想像中爱你 - JS

不知道怎么了，再fb“闲恍”就来到“他”的page.既然来了就看看咯。怎么知道...有一张照片出现在我眼前-一张婚纱照！！！不是吧？？？他要结婚了？？？

瞬间我愣住了！心中有一股酸，眼泪不禁流下。。。 原来他一直没从我心中离开，原来他在我心中的地位比我想象中的还要重。。。原来我一直没放下。。。原来。。。

http://youtu.be/Huv8ilMkSCM


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bo bee bo bee plsss....

New Year doesnt seems good for Ah Cek & Family... 1st, Cek Gong left, den Ah Cek got a mild stroke suddenly, follow by Kean Boy having fever for a week.... OMG!

Dear Deity,
pls kindly bo bi Ah Cek & Family... Went to visit them today, can feel how worry & upset Lao Sim is... Husband gone, Son had a stroke, Grandson fever... She cant take it, really cant... Pls give them e strength and may the bad goes and good stays...



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Final Farewell - Goodbye Cek Gong!

He's gone... forever~~~

The man whom watch me grow up, who fed me with lots of yummy fishballs, who I called "Cek Gong" -- Gone forever...

Cek Gong passed away on 26 Jan, 3days before CNY... The last time we visited him was a week before he passed on. Was really shocked to see him... so skinny, like only left with a layer of skin wrapping the bone... couldnt regconise him anymore.. it was a heartbreaking scene... We knew in our heart that he cant make it long.. but we prayed for him, hoping that he can make it through the CNY... But ~~~~

on the 26 Jan (Lunar pre-CNY 28th nite) my daddy's phone rang, and the bad news came... it was a heartbreaking news... really dunnu how to react, it happen too fast... too soon... We thought he could have made it through... but no.. he cant..

my whole family went to his wake to offer our last respect to him yesterday... we just couldnt hold back our tears.. especially me.. i keep tearing... when lao sim was toking about the past which involve Cek Gong n me.. i jus couldnt help it but cry...

I tell myself, i have to come for his final send off.. and I'm glad I made it there... Applied leave from company and went with my dad for Cek Gong final send off to bid him a final goodbye...

it was a heartbreaking, heartstopping.. i dunnu wat else to describe but.. just really sad n keep crying.. especially when all his filial children was screaming n crying so loudly n sadly for their beloved father...

It's e same feeling as sending my grandparents off years ago...

But we have to say that he had a good life.. with all his children, grandchildren, sworn brothers, sworn grandsons, fanily & frenz here to send him off his final journey despite it's still CNY season.. and the funeral was a grand one... with the Gong Guan, Da Tou Zai, 5 Merc Cab in line, so many family & frenz... I believe Cek Gong left with peace and happily...

The one regret for me is.. I couldnt offer him my wedding tea... He has been asking if I'm getting married soon? He longed for the wedding tea... but I'm really regretful that I couldnt fufil tt wish of him...

Cek Gong, U have live a great life.. Rest in peace!
U will be missed deeply!

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sickness is horrible!

Sickeness can be so horrifying!

I cant believe my eyes when i saw him.. doesnt look like him anymore! I couldn;t regconise him.. it's like "who is he?" His look totally changes... it's so heartbreaking!

Used to be so strong n loud... now... bedridden, cant even speak proper...His days are numbered... I dun wan to accept this but i have to...

Learnt that he actually was asking about me, asked if i'm getting married soon, he wanted to attend my wedding... i felt a pain in my heart... I'm really sorry that i couldnt make this happen any sooner as i have yet to meet my guy...

I cant forget his face now.. it's so scary how this illness can be.. let's pray for him to be strong and make it through the new year...



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2 years ago, 2 years later today

Just as I thought: "Just leave it, let it be"... things din jus lay low...
I got suspended from selling as i din clock in enuf CPD hours... Just when I tell myself i wanna try again.. haiz...

And just when this happend, someone gave me an offer to a bank... it sounds so attractive!!! and just when i was about to say yes... another person came... someone who made me feel so guilty to...

2 years ago, he approached me to join him, when i almost wanna go with him, someone close to me got me in... I let him down...And now, just when i was about to say yes to the other party, he came into e picture again... giving me e same offer he did 2 years ago, asking me to give myself 1 more chance... he's so sincere... for 2 years you know.. i felt so obligated to join him.. but i'm more attracted by the other... how???

if only he belong to the other... haiz... i really dunnu how to make choices.. and i hate to...

but another problem, if i join him, i let another person down from e same side... I feel so bad!!!

Put off the fire first! .. ya i noe.. but wat's next???
Just let the fire died and the end? or light it up with another flame?? Which flame shuld it be???

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Happy 2011 !!!

Happy New Year!!! It's 2011 already! Oh my! How long have i not blogged??? too busy with work liao :(

ok time for some new year resolution! haha...

Last year i wished for:

So wat do i wan for 2010?
- More Sales
- More income
- Car
- Bring Family to Taiwan for Holiday
- Bring Family to Genting for short trip
- Slim down pls ~~~
- Saving up for my dream cafe
- PLS GRANT ME A BOYFRIEND :)

So wat i acheived???

- more income
- car

yet to do?
- bring family for holiday
- bring family for short trip
- slim down
- save up for dream cafe
- BOYFRIEND :(

hahaha... so this 2011 i shall continue with wat i have yet to acheive...to add on:
2011 i wanna:
- spend more time with family
- spend more time with frenz

HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN !!!!

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Drained ~~~

I'm so tired... seriously!!!
What I am i doing sia? Doing so many jobs, working so hard yet not spending any... so xin ku for wat?

My life is only left with work work n work... haven't have a good rest.. i miss my frenz!!! I really do... Qns is... WHERE ARE MY FRENZ??? seems to have alot, but when i pick up my mobile phone, i actually have no numbers to call...

I'm missed out from gatherings, shopping, dinner etc.. I'm out of my frenz list!

OMG !!! I'm tired.. but i feel that i still need to carry on this kind of life... WORK n dun spend... REASON? I wanna save for my big dream, my target, my goal...
But must i sacrifies like that>? Worth it?

I dunnu... CArry on till i have the answer to it ba...

Dear Frenz,
Pls do keep me in your mind, your outing list.. Dun leave me out!!! Though i may b really busy, packed with work, but i do wanna be invited or ask to go out! I need the company to move on~~~ I dun wanna be ALONE!

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Work Hard vs Hard Work

Work hard n Hard work, there diff u noe?

I was told of tt today... I'm not working hard, but i doing hard work rather..
Yeah, i think so too.. holdin so many jobs, working from day till night, din really earn alot oso..

doing e same, working from day till night can earn so much more.. but y am i not doing tt? well, not tt i dun wan to.. but i'm scared.. i hav e faith in myself doin tt again... Think thru again ba! where's my confident???

Many saw me recently n said tt i seem to have lost weight... did i? i dunnu leh, to me, i look e same everyday leh.. still those fats with me leh.. hmm.. maybe i really did slim abit ba.. workin so hard, din hav time for regular meals... tired n stress... think tt's e reason ba..

but if i can slim down, i really dun mind e hard work.. got $$ yet can slim.. haha

I WAN A BOYFRIEND!!!

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If I bid goodbye~ REGRETS

After Lili left us, i had a thought... People says: "if's not how long u lived but how u lived ur life.."
If i were to leave this way soon, i will have many many regrets~~~

My regrets:
1) Yet to bring my parents for an oversea trip.
2) Yet to provide my parents with good life.
3) Yet to tell them that I LOVE THEM.
4) Yet to earn e desire income i wan.
5) Yet to fall in love.
6) Yet to get a car n drive my parents around.
7) Yet to set up my cafe
8) Yet to meet up with all my frenz.
9) Yet to have fun in my whole life.
10) Yet to travel to many countries.
11) Yet to see my brothers get married n start their family.
12) Yet to do so many many things....

with all the regrets.. I realise that my life has only got work n nothings else...

If i were to leave this world soon, I'll really miss all my frenz, family n every regrets...

Qns: How to live my life to the fullest?

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Farewell ~

The pain & sufferings left u...
You r now welcomed by the Angels...
Happiness is with you now..
Dun worry about us,
We have u in our heart...

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R.I.P My dear frenz ~ Li Li

Life can be so unexpected & so unfair... such a sweet, pretty, kind hearted, smart gal.. She'll almost flawless ! But why???

How can life to so cruel to take her away from all of us.. Havent seen her for a very long time, and i really cant accept the fact tt tis is e way we meet again.

Visited her wake yday, my heart sank as i walk nearer to the wake... I dunnu how to react, dunnu wat to say to her mum... Aunty looks so shag, her eyes were all swollen, n she slim so much! Aunty brought us to see LiLi for the very last time..
I saw her... Lying there so peacefully with the same sweet smile... I cried.. I cant take it anymore... Aunty was strong, she told us not to cry, she said LiLi is very happy now, no more suffering for her, she left happily...

LiLi, rest in peace! We love you & we will really miss u soo...
Thanks u for all e wonderful childhood memories.. You will be remembered! Always a part of us!

Let's us meet again in our next life!

Pls take good care of yourselves where ever u r now.. the angels will surround u !
Love you!

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