not burden.. no no no !!!!

I dunnu how to say, but i jus dun lik this feeling.. I suddenly feel so out of the family... feelin lk i'm a burden to all...

whenever my mum tok to her 'jiemei', she will oways mention my brother- his 'mata kia' (police son)... den will be my youngest bro - his precious piglet... and me??? haha.. nth seems good .. full of prasie for the two sons... but more of complain abt me...

complain of me not helpin her with housechores, she has to help me settle my bills, n i hav been getting some pocket money from her..

i really din wan these to happen as well... i oso hope to be lik last time whereby i hav some stable income, though not alot, but at least i can pay for my own stuff, dun need to get money from my parents, can buy them gifts, bring them out for meals, able to give them some pocket money as well...

i dunu why things are just no coming my way ... i havent got e income i wanted... i tot when i joined tt company. followin them, work hard with them, i can hav a really decent income.. who would noe tt the 2 fellow play such plank! den turned to e current one... tot having a decent income for my expense would be easy... i mean not those big muoney, but at least enuf for my daily... but it's not tt way.. maybe 1st 3 mths, ya, it will definitely be tough, but it's alr half a yr gone, and it's still not moving..

i really dunu wat am i doing??? this shouldn't be e way.. i wan to earn e money tt i decent... i wanna bring my parents out for meals, buy them gifts again.. i dun wanna be carry so much debts, i dun wanna be askin them for money, i dun wanna be a burden to e family.. i wan them to feel proud of me.. not lik now..

i really feel very very sad.... i wan things to change !!!


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Have a break~~~ Self Reflection

4 months has passed and i have yet to prove myself... All e word that i gave, all e promise that i made, all e goals that i've set are all ZERO ! Tis is not wat i wanted.

Why did i leave a stable job? Why did i choose to take up this job? What do i really wanna do? What have i been doing? These are all the things which i need to thing thru again! SERIOUSLY THING THRU... Did i put in enough effort? or did i jus keep find thousand n one reason n excuses for myself not facin the reality?

No more time to waste, time to wake up from all that, time to be serious n what is it that i really wan? Am i working for it? Do i really wan it or is it jus a Dream~~~ a dreamy one?

Take a break n thing thru, i have been to stress these days... have not been sleepin well, have been suffering from insomia for so long... cant sleep thill e clock strike 3am or later.. I cant live my life this way!!!

Pls take it break n make a COME BACK !!!

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Adam is Cool !!!

Adam Khoo lives up to his name! Yap, He's right, it's all start with YOU, It's all about YOU! Dream, Hope, without them, YOU are nothing!

What do YOU wan in life? What's YOUR Goal? Set Your Goal, Plan Your Route, GO for GOAL !!!

Dun fear FAILURE, face it, there's nothing to fear! Learn from FAILURE, go for SUCCESS!!! The Route is for YOU to choose!

I dun wan to be shameful, I'M NOT !!! My Name is not "SHAMEFUL", not "FAILURE", not "DISAPPOINTMENT"...

I'm EILEEN today, and I'll be SUCCESS tomorrow!!!

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short n sweet ~

a short n sweet meet up with 3 cousins @ Jaymie's Pet's Shop !!!
Visit The Little ND @ Everton Park !!! Lovely Rabbits!!!

the lady boss... Jaymie

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U r not alone~~~

Yes, I am not alone !!!
Had always felt so lonely in this industry, had always felt tt I'm so out from the District, so feel that I'm so extra~~~ BUT I'm Not !!!

Gratefully, many shown their care for me, stretched out their warm hands to me, gave me a hard push to GO GO GO !!!

Raymond gave me a good "coaching session" while we celebrate his bday... He's right, since I'm being thown to my own, den I really have to depend on myself to 自我摸索... Yes, depend on myself and success is still there for me ... He successed this way too ... Go around asking theirs, find the ways and method others do, learn from them and digest them to 'create' my own success method... "You can do it !!! JIA YOU !!!"

"Uncle Royce" oso enlightened me alot !!! Had always find him very strict and tense with work, kind of fear and feel stress to approach him.. But that day, he ask me to go down to his office to do calling... he wan to see me!!! "OH MAN" I thought... But he appear so nice tt day.. becuz of his NEW PUNKIE hairstyle??? haha.. I dunnu, but he really gave me lots of ideas on how to make every call an appt, and make sure these appt are firm ones n not smoke screen!!!
"JIAYOU arh!!! "

And of cos, my SP-Cai Niao... Father Joe, Sister Rae, Aunty Philbert & Yandao Pieter !!! haha... During each and every cold calling session, they nv failed to give each other encouragement. They nv left me out, always point out sth which i overlook, which i take for granted... Really thank them for giving me all e push n guidance.. and their "JIAYOU"

I noe I can do it, I'm not alone !!! Everyone's there to help me, to guide me... I should not give up and there's not reason for me to give up!!! I have to prove myself, prove to those who looked down on me, to those who think I'll cant make it... I WILL DO IT !!!

Thanks for all e "JIA YOU" every single ones means a powerful push n motivation to me!!!
EILEEN ~~~ GO GO GO !!!
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King Sarawak Pineapple!!!

U seen a pineapple before? I'm sure abt it.. How abt a twin pineapple? I've seen alot too.. but a KING???? hahaha... I jus came across not 1 but 2 !!!!

U muz be thinking.. " Pineapple means pineapply la, wat twin? wat king?" hahaha.... Pictures tells a thousand words.. Look at these...

It's heavy mind u!!!!

ONG LAI HUAT ARH !!!

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