sickness is horrible!

Sickeness can be so horrifying!

I cant believe my eyes when i saw him.. doesnt look like him anymore! I couldn;t regconise him.. it's like "who is he?" His look totally changes... it's so heartbreaking!

Used to be so strong n loud... now... bedridden, cant even speak proper...His days are numbered... I dun wan to accept this but i have to...

Learnt that he actually was asking about me, asked if i'm getting married soon, he wanted to attend my wedding... i felt a pain in my heart... I'm really sorry that i couldnt make this happen any sooner as i have yet to meet my guy...

I cant forget his face now.. it's so scary how this illness can be.. let's pray for him to be strong and make it through the new year...



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2 years ago, 2 years later today

Just as I thought: "Just leave it, let it be"... things din jus lay low...
I got suspended from selling as i din clock in enuf CPD hours... Just when I tell myself i wanna try again.. haiz...

And just when this happend, someone gave me an offer to a bank... it sounds so attractive!!! and just when i was about to say yes... another person came... someone who made me feel so guilty to...

2 years ago, he approached me to join him, when i almost wanna go with him, someone close to me got me in... I let him down...And now, just when i was about to say yes to the other party, he came into e picture again... giving me e same offer he did 2 years ago, asking me to give myself 1 more chance... he's so sincere... for 2 years you know.. i felt so obligated to join him.. but i'm more attracted by the other... how???

if only he belong to the other... haiz... i really dunnu how to make choices.. and i hate to...

but another problem, if i join him, i let another person down from e same side... I feel so bad!!!

Put off the fire first! .. ya i noe.. but wat's next???
Just let the fire died and the end? or light it up with another flame?? Which flame shuld it be???

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Happy 2011 !!!

Happy New Year!!! It's 2011 already! Oh my! How long have i not blogged??? too busy with work liao :(

ok time for some new year resolution! haha...

Last year i wished for:

So wat do i wan for 2010?
- More Sales
- More income
- Car
- Bring Family to Taiwan for Holiday
- Bring Family to Genting for short trip
- Slim down pls ~~~
- Saving up for my dream cafe
- PLS GRANT ME A BOYFRIEND :)

So wat i acheived???

- more income
- car

yet to do?
- bring family for holiday
- bring family for short trip
- slim down
- save up for dream cafe
- BOYFRIEND :(

hahaha... so this 2011 i shall continue with wat i have yet to acheive...to add on:
2011 i wanna:
- spend more time with family
- spend more time with frenz

HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN !!!!

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Drained ~~~

I'm so tired... seriously!!!
What I am i doing sia? Doing so many jobs, working so hard yet not spending any... so xin ku for wat?

My life is only left with work work n work... haven't have a good rest.. i miss my frenz!!! I really do... Qns is... WHERE ARE MY FRENZ??? seems to have alot, but when i pick up my mobile phone, i actually have no numbers to call...

I'm missed out from gatherings, shopping, dinner etc.. I'm out of my frenz list!

OMG !!! I'm tired.. but i feel that i still need to carry on this kind of life... WORK n dun spend... REASON? I wanna save for my big dream, my target, my goal...
But must i sacrifies like that>? Worth it?

I dunnu... CArry on till i have the answer to it ba...

Dear Frenz,
Pls do keep me in your mind, your outing list.. Dun leave me out!!! Though i may b really busy, packed with work, but i do wanna be invited or ask to go out! I need the company to move on~~~ I dun wanna be ALONE!

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Work Hard vs Hard Work

Work hard n Hard work, there diff u noe?

I was told of tt today... I'm not working hard, but i doing hard work rather..
Yeah, i think so too.. holdin so many jobs, working from day till night, din really earn alot oso..

doing e same, working from day till night can earn so much more.. but y am i not doing tt? well, not tt i dun wan to.. but i'm scared.. i hav e faith in myself doin tt again... Think thru again ba! where's my confident???

Many saw me recently n said tt i seem to have lost weight... did i? i dunnu leh, to me, i look e same everyday leh.. still those fats with me leh.. hmm.. maybe i really did slim abit ba.. workin so hard, din hav time for regular meals... tired n stress... think tt's e reason ba..

but if i can slim down, i really dun mind e hard work.. got $$ yet can slim.. haha

I WAN A BOYFRIEND!!!

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If I bid goodbye~ REGRETS

After Lili left us, i had a thought... People says: "if's not how long u lived but how u lived ur life.."
If i were to leave this way soon, i will have many many regrets~~~

My regrets:
1) Yet to bring my parents for an oversea trip.
2) Yet to provide my parents with good life.
3) Yet to tell them that I LOVE THEM.
4) Yet to earn e desire income i wan.
5) Yet to fall in love.
6) Yet to get a car n drive my parents around.
7) Yet to set up my cafe
8) Yet to meet up with all my frenz.
9) Yet to have fun in my whole life.
10) Yet to travel to many countries.
11) Yet to see my brothers get married n start their family.
12) Yet to do so many many things....

with all the regrets.. I realise that my life has only got work n nothings else...

If i were to leave this world soon, I'll really miss all my frenz, family n every regrets...

Qns: How to live my life to the fullest?

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Farewell ~

The pain & sufferings left u...
You r now welcomed by the Angels...
Happiness is with you now..
Dun worry about us,
We have u in our heart...

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