Out of me~~~

It's had always been a mysterious thing, since then, now n i believe the future, it will still remain a mystery... The truth was nv made known to me, n it will never be made known...

Told myself to let it go, but i just keep coming.
Told myself to forget it, but it just remain in my mind...
I tried hard to forget u.
But whenever ur news comes in,
My effort will be gone to waste...
U remain in me... I cant let go...

I tried to turn to another, but it never works,
I tried to stop getting news from u, but it just came.
I tried to smile n pretend nth happened, it just did.
I tried everyway, but none brings u go.

Help me, get away from u.
Help me, forget all abt u.
Help me, unlock my heart.
Help me, let some else comes in.

Told myself to let him in, he just cant enter,
Told myself to think of him, he's not in my thoughts
I tried hard to replace u,
But whenever ur news comes in,
My effort will be gone to waste...
U remain in me... I cant let go...


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not burden.. no no no !!!!

I dunnu how to say, but i jus dun lik this feeling.. I suddenly feel so out of the family... feelin lk i'm a burden to all...

whenever my mum tok to her 'jiemei', she will oways mention my brother- his 'mata kia' (police son)... den will be my youngest bro - his precious piglet... and me??? haha.. nth seems good .. full of prasie for the two sons... but more of complain abt me...

complain of me not helpin her with housechores, she has to help me settle my bills, n i hav been getting some pocket money from her..

i really din wan these to happen as well... i oso hope to be lik last time whereby i hav some stable income, though not alot, but at least i can pay for my own stuff, dun need to get money from my parents, can buy them gifts, bring them out for meals, able to give them some pocket money as well...

i dunu why things are just no coming my way ... i havent got e income i wanted... i tot when i joined tt company. followin them, work hard with them, i can hav a really decent income.. who would noe tt the 2 fellow play such plank! den turned to e current one... tot having a decent income for my expense would be easy... i mean not those big muoney, but at least enuf for my daily... but it's not tt way.. maybe 1st 3 mths, ya, it will definitely be tough, but it's alr half a yr gone, and it's still not moving..

i really dunu wat am i doing??? this shouldn't be e way.. i wan to earn e money tt i decent... i wanna bring my parents out for meals, buy them gifts again.. i dun wanna be carry so much debts, i dun wanna be askin them for money, i dun wanna be a burden to e family.. i wan them to feel proud of me.. not lik now..

i really feel very very sad.... i wan things to change !!!


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Asian Photo Effects by AZNFUN.COM

Have a break~~~ Self Reflection

4 months has passed and i have yet to prove myself... All e word that i gave, all e promise that i made, all e goals that i've set are all ZERO ! Tis is not wat i wanted.

Why did i leave a stable job? Why did i choose to take up this job? What do i really wanna do? What have i been doing? These are all the things which i need to thing thru again! SERIOUSLY THING THRU... Did i put in enough effort? or did i jus keep find thousand n one reason n excuses for myself not facin the reality?

No more time to waste, time to wake up from all that, time to be serious n what is it that i really wan? Am i working for it? Do i really wan it or is it jus a Dream~~~ a dreamy one?

Take a break n thing thru, i have been to stress these days... have not been sleepin well, have been suffering from insomia for so long... cant sleep thill e clock strike 3am or later.. I cant live my life this way!!!

Pls take it break n make a COME BACK !!!

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Adam is Cool !!!

Adam Khoo lives up to his name! Yap, He's right, it's all start with YOU, It's all about YOU! Dream, Hope, without them, YOU are nothing!

What do YOU wan in life? What's YOUR Goal? Set Your Goal, Plan Your Route, GO for GOAL !!!

Dun fear FAILURE, face it, there's nothing to fear! Learn from FAILURE, go for SUCCESS!!! The Route is for YOU to choose!

I dun wan to be shameful, I'M NOT !!! My Name is not "SHAMEFUL", not "FAILURE", not "DISAPPOINTMENT"...

I'm EILEEN today, and I'll be SUCCESS tomorrow!!!

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short n sweet ~

a short n sweet meet up with 3 cousins @ Jaymie's Pet's Shop !!!
Visit The Little ND @ Everton Park !!! Lovely Rabbits!!!

the lady boss... Jaymie

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U r not alone~~~

Yes, I am not alone !!!
Had always felt so lonely in this industry, had always felt tt I'm so out from the District, so feel that I'm so extra~~~ BUT I'm Not !!!

Gratefully, many shown their care for me, stretched out their warm hands to me, gave me a hard push to GO GO GO !!!

Raymond gave me a good "coaching session" while we celebrate his bday... He's right, since I'm being thown to my own, den I really have to depend on myself to 自我摸索... Yes, depend on myself and success is still there for me ... He successed this way too ... Go around asking theirs, find the ways and method others do, learn from them and digest them to 'create' my own success method... "You can do it !!! JIA YOU !!!"

"Uncle Royce" oso enlightened me alot !!! Had always find him very strict and tense with work, kind of fear and feel stress to approach him.. But that day, he ask me to go down to his office to do calling... he wan to see me!!! "OH MAN" I thought... But he appear so nice tt day.. becuz of his NEW PUNKIE hairstyle??? haha.. I dunnu, but he really gave me lots of ideas on how to make every call an appt, and make sure these appt are firm ones n not smoke screen!!!
"JIAYOU arh!!! "

And of cos, my SP-Cai Niao... Father Joe, Sister Rae, Aunty Philbert & Yandao Pieter !!! haha... During each and every cold calling session, they nv failed to give each other encouragement. They nv left me out, always point out sth which i overlook, which i take for granted... Really thank them for giving me all e push n guidance.. and their "JIAYOU"

I noe I can do it, I'm not alone !!! Everyone's there to help me, to guide me... I should not give up and there's not reason for me to give up!!! I have to prove myself, prove to those who looked down on me, to those who think I'll cant make it... I WILL DO IT !!!

Thanks for all e "JIA YOU" every single ones means a powerful push n motivation to me!!!
EILEEN ~~~ GO GO GO !!!
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King Sarawak Pineapple!!!

U seen a pineapple before? I'm sure abt it.. How abt a twin pineapple? I've seen alot too.. but a KING???? hahaha... I jus came across not 1 but 2 !!!!

U muz be thinking.. " Pineapple means pineapply la, wat twin? wat king?" hahaha.... Pictures tells a thousand words.. Look at these...

It's heavy mind u!!!!

ONG LAI HUAT ARH !!!

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HIGH & TOW...

Driving sensation~~~ woohoo~~~ but today was a damm HOT sensation.. the car is so hot plus e weather.. OMG !!! Sittin in e car is really lik sauna ~ SWEATING...

today's journey.. Yishun, Home, SengKang, Home, Teck Whye, Home...

poor cousin Patrick sweat with me thru e sengkang journey, ah yi (auntie) n cousins sweat with me thru Teck Whye journey.. went there to fetch them to my house...

Went to e Pertol Kiosk, put in some water to cool e car, but only last for 5mins den it got HIGH again...

My car is actually OVERHEATED!!! total of 5 ppl in e car leh!!! Heng arh, nth happen lor.. reached home faster call e car dealer, den they someone to tow e car back... Stil they hav got no other car for me, hence will refund me e rental for tml...

Since e car is being towed, i cant send my aunty n cousins home!!! haha.. poor thing gotta take MRT!!! haha.. Wat an experience with car!!!
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Mr. Policeman - POC !!!

Report to office @850am today, really forced myself to wake up, oso drive e car to Anita as she need the car today... Left office @ 10plus for appts...

Rec'd call from Joe: " hey, ur boss dun lik us is it? she think we wasting ur time arh?"... I was really shocked by this...

No, not tt, she jus very disappointed with my performance etc, nth to do with u guys, furthermore, w/o u guys, i think i wouldn't have hang on till now... It's all ur encouragement n guidance... Really thankful to have you guys with me... though we are from all diff agencies, but still willing to help one another, bother to ask how each other is doing and suggest help... U guys are great!!!

In the afternoon, went to Home Team Academy as Bro WeeLong is Graduating today!!! hahaha... The place was really HUGE !!! wow!!! SO MANY POLICEMAN!!! hahaha...
And i keep bumping into this cute policeman.. hahaha... wahaha.... 3times... aahahahahaha...


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gave me up?!?!

She GAVE me up !!! arghh !!! this is heartbreaking...

Poor production.. No Common goal... haiz... Ya, i admit i keep everything to myself, and i've been doing thins my own way, going out there to try all method which really bang alot of walls yet not much results... I dunnu leh, there's is alot of agent in my district but i did get chance to really work with them, no one really guide me closely nor do i have a partner to really work with... hence i really felt so lonely n lost... though i noe tt i can always reach out to the seniors to help me, but all i can get is of cos some guidance n they dun hav much time for me...

the question is "AM I REALLY STOPPING MY OWN SUCCESS???"


Have been working with some of the oso new agent from other agencies.. they have been really supportive n realy gave me alot of encouragement.. i really really appreciate all tt ! But production is still e MOST IMPORTANT !!! I still yet to produce !!! OMG !!!


Shiok thing for e day ~~~ I got my rented car !!! Yeah!!! First time driving a Auto car, first time drving a CAR aft i pass my class 3 !!! hahaha .. It's so cool !!! Though e car has afew faulty stuff, but the driving sensation is really cool !!! No bus squeeze, shorter timing journey... woohooo ~~~haha... hmm.. mux faster work for my car !!!

Drove my cousin Ivy home to Jurong East... wah sei, first time drive so fast, on highway leh!!! hahaha... den on e way back, HEAVY DOWNPOUR suddenly!!! I cant see anything on e road so dangerous !!! Anyway, thankfully, i reach home safe n sound!!! :0)

PRODUCTION !!!!

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Science Centre - Da Vinci !!!

It's been a long long time since i last step into the Science Centre, Wow! It can be so fun there!!! haha... Rae n I was amazed by all e Science Exhibition, having so much fun with all e really interesting science... till e anouncement: " Dear visitors, thank u for visiting the Singapore Science Centre, We will be closed @ 6pm... " only then we realise that "Hey our main objective here is to visit The Da Vinci Exhibition!!!"

hahaha... so we ran all e way to Da Vinci Exhibition Hall... Heng la... It's e science centre part which close at 6pm, Da Vinci close at 9pm... hahaha....

Leonardo Da Vinci ~~~ He's really THE GENIUS !!!

Today i really get to know who this Genius is ! Witnessed his work of arts, science n everything... SALUTE HIM!!!

Many of his master pieces left me a really great impression!!! To name some: "Mona Lisa Smile", "The Last Supper", "Vitruvian Man - The Golden Ratio", and the really heartbroken "Bronze Status Horse"... It's really really an impression exhitbition! I'm really glad that I'm there and to learn all these really really impression work of The Genius !!!

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limit limit limit !!!

dun insult me with tt $200 !!! U think ur $200 very big??? Hello, i not beggar ok!!! Wat an insult! Dun tok as if u are so right... Tt judge oso, i'm e claimant, u suppose to help me! But why aren't u on my side??? Hey, u think i go there to sit n listen to all of u telling to YOUR side of the story, did u give me a chance to tell my side of the story????

ok, since u treat me this way, fine, den i shall not be so lenient.... i will fight for wat i deserve!

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I'm so HOT !!!

HOT?!?! yes i am --- FEVER !!! :(

sudden fever yday morning, den nv report to work.. spent e whole day sleeping, too 'gong gong' tp hear any phonecall etc... only remb to call my mum to inform her tt i'm sleeping at home...

wake up at abt 7pm, to realise that i had so many missed call from office and boss... den boss called again when i finally picked up... she sound like " EILEEN !!! WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU?" lolx.. sorry boss, down with fever den 'drop dead'...

today still not feeling so good, but had to attend a new programme " Triple A Club", a 7 wk programme every thursday from 3pm - 5pm... bo bian, gotta drag myself there since i nv see doctor for MC...

when i reach office, boss was like " u ok anot? dun stay too near me ! haha" .. orite, i still dun look ok, but i think i can still manage la...
Nitemare !!! a letter sayin that my commission is gonna be call back due to client had previously surrender a policy!!! OMG~~~ Y do this to me ?!?! My biz already gg very slow liao den still give me such thing ?!?!?!
the lesson today was good, motivating n now i really dun hate calling so much liao! hehe but ... the classroom was damm cold !!! Gheeezzz ~~~ Finally endure to it till 5pm !!!

Rushed down to Bugis to meet Royston den head to Lavender to see the Nuweal Group ppl n Brem... Got some documents from him and see the company is doing well... We had some sharing sessions and give some encouragement to him... It's a tough time for them, but i believe they can do it... Results has already shown ~~~

JiaYou Brem! JiaYou Nuweal !!!
and of coz.. JiaYou Eileen , JiaYou AIA !!! hahaha...
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Income, Production, Award, Convention

Aug District Meeting...

Aug Bday babies: Raymond, Marcus, XueLi*absent*

Notice they wear exactly e same clothings?!?!?!.. lolx !

tis is my 3rd District Meeting liao and finally aft 2mth plus of struggling, I've got my name up on the production chart !!! Life case FYP rank 11th ... Still a long distance away from the awards and convention !!!!

How to reach for e Stars Awards? How to fly to Tokyo? My week isn't very good... already wednesday liao and no FHR done!!! No new appt sia!!! A handful of FHR to follow up though... I wanna convert them into production!!! I dun wan to stay this way... I wan my income, car, production, convention!!! I wanna do myself proud, i wanna prove ppl wrong.. I wanna make it !!!

I really really wan to !!! But ... i really need a hard hard push after so many put down... Seeing others running for their production yet i got only so little... I wanna chiong oso but why am i working mentally but not so much physically???

I cant stop, cabt give up, cant surrender.. Move on Eileen, Fight on Eileen, U can do it de!

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1st monthly gethering ~ 31 July, Prawning

Wheee~~~ it was a very successful outing!!! This is e very first time we organise an outing n 9 ppl turned up! Good response!!! We had lots of fun...


We met at abt 8plus @ Bishan - Hai Bin U and had our dinner there (thanks to boss Raymond who pay e bill !!!)... den started our prawning at 930pm (3hrs session). We caught alot of prawns!!! small, medium, large n even extra large....


Eating, drinking, prawning, chatting and most of the time LAUGHING n photoshooting.. lolx... The most happening ('malu' for me) was a pole dancing show by Lance... hmm.. till now I'm still wanderin who is e one who kena sabo? Me or him? lolx... Anyway, we really had so much fun....


We had agreed to have this kind of gathering once every month end, after all production done... Time to relax and do alittle sharing, motivating each other !


I'm Loving It !!!

Click on link for e slide show pix
http://www.slide.com/r/wHk7xTH-tj9555nc6gqiCgELbUCaAo3L?previous_view=mscd_embedded_url&view=original

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Need a break to sharpen my knife saw~~~

Time is running out n yet i cant break thru~~~ argh... tis is very bad... look like it's time to take a break n sharpen my saw to chiong for next mth!!!

Yday went for lunch with my dearest Fion @ Suntec... Nice Porridge Feast!!! Yum Yum... damm full lor.... We jus couldn't stop laughing whenever we are together... tt's e bad thing! lolx... After lunch, I acc her to take e bus 97, she head to Jurong East while i alight at UIC building n walked al damm long journey to MOM... It would be faster if i walked from Suntec itself... lolx...

Sista, see, "wei le ni arh!!! ".. haha

Bad news rec'd today Wealth Accumulator will close on Monday 5pm... Oh man, i have not even started n they are ending it!!! WAIT FOR ME LEH!!!

Tml's activity, do callin in office den head to Jurong Point for Cold Canvass with Rae, follow by gathering with the Marine Parade Roadshow peeps... (yet to find a name for these ppl, SP- ....) we are gg to do prawning!!! hahaha... am so looking forward to it!!! We're gonna let our hairs down... NO BOSS ALLOWED for tml!!! lolx...

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July Production...

July coming to end liao... how did i fare??? Not good at all...

Transfer from SP-Elite to SP-AC-Elite, under Randy Choo. Very learned man, very nice leader... shared lots of personal experience and he really listen to all my words with many useful advise... But his room is really -- North Pole... so cold... Now i call him POLAR BEAR.. hehe

Production:
Healthshield Gold Elite - $214.1/yr
Essential - $244/yr
Guarnateed 15 for life - $315/mth (collected 3mths $945)
Healthshield Gold Elite -$149.8/yr
Essential - $201.2/yr
Healthshield Gold Elite - $214.1/yr
Healthshield Gold Elite - $149.8/yr
Healthshield Gold Elite - $149.8/yr

NOT GOOD !!!

New FSC join our district n really posed threat to me.. I'm getting more n more stress plus gotta settle some prev. employment thingy... like so many things bothering me... ARGH !!!
Really thank Fion n Joe who has been motivating me, hearing me out n share alot with me... Thanks so much for e motivation n ideas etc... Really appreciate every single one of them! Thanks guys!!! Let's throw our stress away on friday.. for awhile...

Went for a day trip to Malaysia with My Dad's tour group..My very 1st time to Malaysia, 2nd time oversea trip... Kind of relax myself for awhile.. but when back to Singapore, phone starts to ring liao... arghhh... i wanna chiong, i wanna close many many sales but how???

Wealth Accumulator is going very fast, selling like HOT CAKES, but only for a very very limited time... I'm not prepared yet... arghhh ~~~

How to squeeze into TOP, how to go TOKYO???
Nonono... still got chance, still got hope... I WILL GET IT !!!!
SP-Elite

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My 1st cold-call roadshow @ Marine Parade Promenade

It was a great learning experience for me... so privillege n honour to have so many outstanding leaders n senior sharing their experience n guidance with me.. they are so generous !!! I'm really glad tt i was at the roadshow for the whole of 9days!!! Really gained alot, learnt alot... made lots of frenx too !!!

SP-Elite : Me, Claire Cheng, XueLi, Ryna

SP-CK-Elite : Raymond Ong, Justina Chan, Pauline Tan, Asri,

SP-RoyceAng: Royce Ang, Fion Toh, Alan Png, Edwin Tan, Kang Xiang, Sai Kiat

SP-EdmundLee: Edmund Lee, Joan Tan, Joe Kwek, WeiKiong, Pieter

SP-Xaiver: Xavier Kwa, Veronica Ng, Rae Kwa, Tristan

Results - 85 leads in total
Big thank you to all the leaders n senior whom had shared n taught me alot alot alot.. Thanks guys! Love ya, jiayou n chiong together !!!

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FP = Foundation Progm, Funny Peoples rather!!!

Was on a 4 days Foundation Progamme held at Tampines (12 May - 15 May).

Trainer Robert Chitty... suppose to have diff. trainer everyday but end up all 3 days were conducted by him... but we loved it! He's conducted his lesson in a really fun & lively way... We dun feel bored or dry at all !!!

Initially, i really dread e idea of attendin e 4 days course at Tampines, e thought of wakingup damm early in e morning, take a damm long journey on MRT from Tiong Bahru really make me turned off!!! BUT after e first day of lesson, i luv it! hahaha...

Apart from Robert's way of teaching which made me luv e progamme, 1 more impt factor is e bunch of crazy buddies I met !!! My partner, WanXin, e 2 behind us, Joyce & Jimmy!!!

During lesson times, we listen attentively, but when during break interval n lunch, u will hear our crazy laughters!!! It's really crazy,so loud that everyone will turn to us with weird expression, but we dun care at all ... HAHAHAHA..... We juz cant control~~~ We cling very fast n very well !!!

But due to 2 more ppl joining us on e last day, my class of 18 were force to split !!! Some of us will be attendin our last lesson at Alexandra... I'm one of them!!! The rest of them (WanXin, Joyce n Jimmy) are having it at Tampines:(

Hey guys, let's keep our laughter on, over Facebook, MSN or meeting ups !!! We'll also share our results together ok!

Luv n miss u !!!



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(good) news updates

so long nv update liao... haha... not tt i too happy celebrating over my passing of class 3 la.. lolx.. still waiting for the license card to be send to me ...

well, passed class 3 on 27 April, tried to drove a van on 1 May... hahaha... Fun yet scary, esp e parking.. haha... parraell parkin on a slope.. Cool??? hahaha... Adding on to the thrill is... a really cool n good looking RED SPORTS CAR is jus infront of my van!!! wth... scare me off... almost got it!!! hahahaha.. but i parked it in place safely....with guidance from my uncle sittin beside me lor.. haha.. I've got e P plate from my bro's gf and will hop on to the van again.. well, each time my uncle come, i will hop on and DRIVE !!! hehehehe... BEWARE OF ME !!!

Ended tt labour day nite with a movie.. went TBP with bro Long, his gf, n bro kiang... 4 of us, 1 person pay.. not me! hahaha... i left my wallet in e mkt ma... nice movie~~ X-men origin, WOLFVORINE!!! extremely nice when it's free.lolx

3 May, Mum & Dad 22nd wedding anniversary! I ever told my mum "Oh, it's not gg to be my business!" ... haha.. but since i'm e well known kpo figure in e family, i still take it as my business.. lolx.. Long's gf went to TBP to get them a small cake, and we planned the surprise... haha..

When e couple came home from e mkt, we din say anything, jus had our diner as usual.. den when Long is abt to leave for his camp den we took e cake out.... Dad still cant figure out wat occasion tt was... oh man !!! Den Long'butahan' liao n said to him "ur wedding anniversary la!"... wah lao !!! They were surprise la...Mum asked " tot u say not ur biz, den still buy cake?" i replied, " bo bian, i kpo ma! haha.."... Dad planted a sweet kiss on mum's cheek while takin pic.. but i happened too sudden, my camera not fast enuf to get it! aiya!!!

Anyway, Happy 22nd Anniversary!!! Stay Lovely as ever n keep me jealous as oways ~~~

5 May ~1 more gd news.. finally passed my M9!!! yeah yeah yeah ~~~

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u hav my word!

2 years is wat he spend to be where he was... I wan n i will strive to acheive better if not equally good as him! I will not be a slacker, i will not be defeated, i will strive to do my best, i will prove that i can!

I will be on TOP, tt's where i belong !

This is my word... I will do it, be proud of me !

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Hateful~~~ Tearful

It's only a day of happy celebration n today... a hateful tearful day !!! For so long... still you dunnu me well? You dun trust me? U misunderstand me? Am I such a person???

Wat a heartbreaking fact.. I'm not trusted at all....

I really hate to cry, but I really lost control today after receiving 3 calls, to hear 3 differents stories, to learn tt I'm not trusted at all... You dun noe me at all !!! I hate my cry today, cried till couldn't speak properly, cried till couldn't catch my breath, cried till e whole face turned red, cried till i shock e people who saw me, cried too hard till i strain my neck muscles....

I HATE TODAY !!! Wanted to go badminton to destress all these but ny dad dun let me go since he oso not going!!!

ARGHHH ~~~~~~~~~

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Trick or Treats ? I got it both ! haha

I'm a qualified driver!!!!! hahaha... 3 times of TP, I'm finally granted my driving license!!! hahaha.... an a Perfect 10 pointers!!! wahahaha....

Was so damm stressed up yday.... Feeling so uneasy all over me, sit oso not rite, stand oso not right, dunnu wat is right sia.... Stress till wanna cry, scare of failing again, scare of disappointment, scare of letting people down, scare of throwing their face... So super stress!!!

As the test start, everything seems well... den at one pt, e tester start to 'click click click' alot on his touch screen PC... " Oh man, got so many mistake meh? " I thought and another time he sigh and shook his head... Den I was asked to go back to e driving centre.. I thought, "die, I was not asked to do U-turn test?!?!"

Back to driving centre, up to e tester office... He printed my result with a very no expression face... den I was asked to sit down... He asked
Tester: " How many times u took e test? ,
Me: "err... 3 times alr" I answered in shiver...
Tester: "U working or schooling?"
Me: "err... working"...
Tester: "working where?"
Me: (thinking shit!) " err... office, pte sector..."
Tester: " ya la, as wat la.. engineer oso office work etc..."
Me: " oh.. Admin & sales..."
Tester: ( fliped my result slip over) " Nah, go watch e video ! Good one !!! *smile*
Me: " Wahhhh ... hoooo~~~~ " so relieve tt i saw the word printed "PASSED" and i scold 10 points!!!!

Argh!!! I made it, he tricked me !!!! hahahahaha... Den i went back to my instructor.. actually wannted to trick him abit, but he alr knew my result and said " good, jin ho (hokkien for very good), good good !!! Jus now i saw, u did very good!!! ( i really wonder how did he know it all?) Anyway, he's very happy of me and I'm overjoyed!!! hahaha.... I keep thanking him before he left for his next lesson with a BIG SMILE !!!

YEAH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S : sorry, i too excited about my passing hence written too much !!! hahaha !!!

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The Red Rino ~~~

Ringgggggggggggggggggggggg~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Argh, wat a irritating sound!!!

The fire alarm rang off suddenly in TB Market @ abt 7plus pm.... Well, something wrong with the alarm la, suddenly rang, gave us a shock... Oh, cux my parents stall in still open at that hour, so we were there.. hehe...

The alarm went on n on... so irritating n it lasted for abt 2mins.. Haiyo ... Juz when we tot everything was back to peace... ... Guess wat??? Another alarm rang !!! It's the siren of the Fire Engines !!!!

Everyone was so stunned, when the Little Red Rino arrived followed by the big Red Fire Eingine !!! When the fire fighters got off their vehicles, they were looking stunned as we stared blankly at them!!! They puzzled, so were we!!!

Haha, wat a big laugh !!! The fire alarm actually was connected to the fire station, and when it was activated, the station received the signal and sent the fire engines down... lolx... wat a HUGE SCENE !!! Had never seen so many fire fighters n fire engines appearin at the market before !!! Muhahahaha ~~~

Such a rare scene, of coz mux take a pic (secretly) la !!! And there is this Ang Moh very cute, he took his camera n stood in front of the Red Rino to take some shots, and one of the fire fighter actually posed for him! hahaha...

The fighters stayed to check around the market to ensure that everythings is fine before they left abt 30mins later.....

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bless me pls !!!

Failed M9!!! How can tt be??? Had given myself too much pressure i guess ~~~ boohoo !!! Will try again n make sure i pass !!!!

Gonna pick up my rackets n sweat for full 3 hrs game today !!!! I missed the 2 hrs last wk due to back injury!!!

Next up, 27 April ... I make sure i pass this once n for all !!!! Pls bless my lucky number 27 again !!! Cars on e road of ubi, pls give ways on 27 April 10.15am onwards!!!

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4days n counting

4 days of "no working days"~~~ wat's e feeling like???

Monday: went to A in e morning for study den went to Bright Hill Temple to pray respect to grandparents

Tuesday: skipped studyin at A due to back is still very pain, stayed home, helped abit at parents stall..

Wednesday: driving lesson in e morning, bought Mac breakfast n enjoyed with parents in e market...

Thursday: Menses day :( went to market for breakfast n lunch, stomach cramp together with backpain... alamak !!! pain till cant tahan, fall asleep :P

Friday: Plan to meet Eugina for dinner... gotta spend e rest of the day studyin liao !!!

tt's my week of "no work"... haiz.. more to go ... how???

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Sec sch memories...

Travelled past my secondary sch yday at abt 2pm... the time where student are dismiss from school... Seeing so many juniors rushing out from the schools gates, gathered at the bus-stop, board the bus n discussin where to go next... Some were buying ice-cream from the ice-cream man outside the school... Oh how much memories~~~

It's really nice to see those scenes... i was once lik them, doin all e same things tt they are doing now... haha~~~ School days... how nice, how i miss !!! Many changes has taken place in e school, some building were built,some teachers left and new ones came...but it's those lovely memories tt remains unchanged!!!

I remb our cheer:

We are from Queenstown n we bring supreme,

cuz we crush the others jus lik jellybean,

no matter north or south, east or west,

we are from Queenstown n we are e best

11 claps

11 claps

OooOooo... QUEENSTOWN ~YEAH !!!

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Ouchie ~~~

Still hurts.. still pain... I cant slp !!! I can't lay on my back- pain! I can't slp facing down- neck pain! ARGH !!!!

Wake up in e morning with damm bad condition of my back... Oh did i told u I'm on long leave now? yeah... i am ... but went to A for my mock paper in e morning.. I dun have my full concentration there, i cant sit properly... Back hurts!!!

Rush back home @ 2pm, had a quick lunch and join my cousin Meiting & husband,Mum & Dad, Ah yi & Yi zhan to Bright Hill to pray respect to My maternal grandparents... We went in 2 cabs... OH.. tt wasnt a good journey at all... the taxi "jerdd" afew times.. and each time it does tt, my back jus hurt lik hell... i can sit striaght, had to lay slant but each of those poor road condition really is hell to me !!! ARGH!!!

Dad is gg to rub for me again..gotta go thru e pain again ... Dun think i can go for badminton training tml liao..oh sad !!!!!!!!!

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Painful !!!

Ouch !!! It really hurt !!! In short, I fell from e stool, onto the ground (stooll broke into pieces!)!!! Argh !!! damm embrassing n damm painful !!!

It was my younger bro, Long's Big 20 bday party~~~ Everything was fine.. BBQ, frenz came etc... the party went on thru out the nite n ending on e next moring @ 6am... Dead tired... (-_-) and i cant slp long as i need to go pray respect to my late grandparents later tt morning... It's sound good rite? So where is e part i fell??? haha.. towards e end of the party..

My dear childhood frenz Ms. Vicki came over tohug me gdbye, n try to 'touch' me with her "dirty hand"...It's so ticklish n i'm really scare of tickles!!! so a sense of pulling from her tickle n lost balance from tt already in ill condition stool... "bang"~~~ i lay flat on e ground!!! Everyone had a big shock esp Vicki & Anita who is beside me... I was so damm paisei lor...

It's my bro's bday party n all his frenz are there, n me, e big sister performed such stunt!!! oh... feel lik laying down there n cover my face.. dun wish to get up n face the people!!! I jus keep luffin at myself for the foolish act n tears jus roll down my eyes... my back n thigh were really painful (thigh landed hard on e cement n back n shoulder landed hard on e grass patch)...

Went to bed at 6.30am den was woke up by my dad's call @11am-- time to go for prayer! And i wokeup with the really stiff n painful back as well as my neck n thigh. In short, e whole behind of my body PAIN!!!

Came home @ 5pm n fall dead asleep on e living room sofa till 7pm... still pain!!! My dad den help me apply oilment n rub my back n neck for me... Oh man, there one big pack of blue black on my back!!! My whole family can witness it! Tt explain my painful sensation!!! ok..enuf of my painful n super throw face experience.... wanna go to my bed liao.. but i gotta be realy careful cuz my back still hurt like H~~~... Be back soon !!!

some pics for the happy occasion (b4 my fall)...
HAPPY BIG 20 MY "MATA BOY" - TSC NAI !

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leave a smile for e nxt day!

Script writer seem to be everyone and anyone can be... Sad la, when u nv say anything, but ppl can jus come up with some really "wow" stories, putting words into ur mouths... Everything done behind u, u wun noe it till u hear it somewhere or when it's "on air" !!! 人言可畏，不过，只要问心无愧就不必在意别人说什么。公道自在人心！

The only time i feel good is my badminton session... running ard e court, smashing n hitting e shuttles, being hit by shuttles (surely kena every session!), sweating out~~~ woohoo !!! Let all e stress goes with the sweat n smash down all e sorrow n unhappiness!!! hahaha... Din play very yday as mood was affected..

Still dunnu wat's e next move here... dunnu how they gg to settle, jus do my job till tml ~~~ hopefully i'm given a clear direction by today!

Oh ya, this wkn we are havin rdshw @ Suntec City Convention Hall.. Learning & Health Challenge 2009 ... hahaha..

http://www.gqrmagonline.com/

nevertheless, oways leave a smile for the next day! (~0~)

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when the hearts no longer beat as one...

8 hearts beating as one, for one goal, one dream... It wasn't a good ending... The bad economy changed the things... It's now in bad shape.. Dishearted ones are opting out, giving up... Left with e few who still hold on to the goal and dream, but to fulfil this goal, it's not easy... Debts to clear, re-organisation to be done, how to re-build the confidents of everyone, how to turn the negative figure to positive....

I was kept in the dark when all these happened till someone sounded me... I very much wanted to help... very much wanted to carry on this goal but what can i do? I dun have the money to invest... and to be frank, i have yet to receive offical news from the head abt these happenings...

What's next? what's e new direction?

Thought i have a backup route for myself, but i really dun wish to give up here... afterall i been thru all the process, from the 1st stage planning till now the bad shape...

Any direction for me??? Had been having insomia these days... i cant sleep and am falling sick again... HOW?

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A rainbow 4 baby bro's bday !

RAINBOW !!! ~~~ shouted my TATA MEI ! ....

Saw a really lovely rainbow clearly across e orange sky!!! So beautiful ~~~~

Went for facial today and had my very first face threading... woo~~~ tot it would be really painful, but it was bearable for me !!! hehe... BRAVE ??? TORLERANCE!!! hahaha

Happy Bday Baby Bro Kiang !!! 14 yrs old liao, be more guai ya !!!

2 bday cakes for him, 2 bday pressies...Hope he's happy with them !!! Happy Bday my dearie!!!

(Stupid, why cant the photos be uploaded???)

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I can make my decision !!!

CNY is offically over... a new year is here, and new decisions are to be made...

I cant make up my mind. I'm offer a job by 2 different person, different company. Both offer the same thing for me, job details same... Everything same... Now the thing is, 1 is my frenz who has followed up with me on this job for more than half a year while the other is my aunty who offer me this job only in Dec.

I see the potential and the future of this career but i can't decide who to join. Either party I choose, I will let the other one down. I wanna do the job, be in the career, I wanted a chance to strive a bright future, now that I have 2 opportunity, which one shuld i go for?

Both have shown me their sincerely in approaching me, i felt their sincerely and trueness... Now everything is not important, most important is MY DECISION !!!

I really am happy and glad that they see the potential in me and identify me as someone who can do it. But I can only choose 1 and show my graditute to in action...

Argh ~~~ I really have no clue how to decide... I cant please both, I don't wanna let anyone down, but I oso dun wanna give up this opportunity.

how How HOW??????????

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MoOo~~~Here comes e CoW !!!!

Can u hear it ??? ~~~ MoOooOo~~~ The CoW has arrived!!!!

Yeah !!!! Yet another year past in a blink of an eye, how fast !!!

Lunar New Year is the BIG DAY all chinese love and had been waiting for the whole year. Since it's such a wonderful day for all, everyone started preparation since a month before CNY!!!

haha.. As for me, well, my parents sell fruits in the market, so pre-CNY is the busiest time of all... Everyday will end really late. The most fun time & the favourite time of mine is the Eve of CNY Eve (the lunar 29th). On this day, the wet market will operates 24hrs, this is a tradition.

With no exception, I stayed in the market overnite (more than 24hrs) every year to help my parents.. Well, in fact, i willchase them home to sleep while me & my bros will take care of the store.. Thankfully this yr we hav 2 more helpers-- Cousin William & Winnie! hehe I stayed in the morning since lunar 29th morning 830am till CNY eve (e nxt day) 330pm.. den i really cannot take it liao, close shop, go home, bathe & SLEEP !!!! hahaha.. will only wake up @7pm for reunion dinner! muahaha..

CNY day 1, All my relatives will gather @ my home for visiting and stayed for dinner. Everyday, we will prepare 3 tables of steamboats ( 1 is teppanyanki) for our relatives to enjoy! This year happen to be 2nd Uncle's bday oso, so i bought a little cake for him. Everyone sang him the bday song & he'sso happy! After my relatives left, my younger bro's frenz all came.. they continue with another round of steamboat till dawn!!!.. This year was extremely crowded!!!! haha

CNY Day 2, all of us will 'relocate' to my 2nd Aunty's home for e same thing.. hehe

CNY day 4, i invited some of my frenz to my home again for steamboat and "lou hei"!!! Huat arh!!!

CNY day 6 was Heng Kang in office... "Lou Hei", take ang paos, lucky draw, phototaking, casino... lolz...

CNY day 7,was invited to Aunty Regina's place (4th uncle)for gathering... This is the first time i went to their place @ East Coast, Telok Kurau...It's a 3 storey big house! WOW!!! 4th Uncle give me 10yrs to show him my house like his! haha.. I will, but dun have to wait for 10 years!!!! hahahaha.... I will work very very hard !!!

Tt's CNY sensation for 2009!!! Well, the new year is not over yet!!!
Huat arh ~~~ MoOo ~~~ !!!

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Day 4 @ home with frenz

Day 7 @ Aunty Regina & 4th Uncle's house

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I turned 21 before the end of 2008 !!!

Happy New Year everyone !!! woohoo ~~~ it's 2009 already OMG !!!

The last thing i celebrated for 2008 was my 21st bday !!! haha.. Though tt ended year 2008 but it marks the begining of my 21 year old, my adulthood !!! hahaaaaa....

I had a really wonderful 21st bday party at home - my private chalet.. haha... Had intented to book a chalet but it was really too expensive due to the super peak period hence i make do with my home... haha.. but i guess it wasn't bad at all.. My Home is jus like a chalet, jus tt there's not room for over nights la.. haha

I had the party held in my backyard. Thanks to some of my relatives who helped me decorate my backyard and of cos my mighty dad who is the orrh - jjian man for the night !!! Yummy orh jian !!! Thanks Dad!

I had my backyard FULL OF PEOPLE !!! OMG ~~~ I'm really really happy that most of them attended..almost half of the invited din make it for my party but my backyard already damm full & packed.. hahaha.... BIG THANK YOU EVERYONE !!!

now let the pictures do the saying :











































Super Mummy & Mighty Daddy













Wonderful Family












My Twin Aunty & family














Eldest Aunty & family













2nd Uncle & Aunty













5th Uncle & Aunty













Cousin Patrick & wife (3rd Uncle family)

















Cousin Derek (4th Uncle & family)














3rd Aunty













Little Aunty & Uncle













My Ah Cek


















My Lao Sim














Quest

Males Cousins (partial)

Female Cousins (Partial)

Childhood Frenz

Neighbours

Colleagues & Frenz

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