not burden.. no no no !!!!

I dunnu how to say, but i jus dun lik this feeling.. I suddenly feel so out of the family... feelin lk i'm a burden to all...

whenever my mum tok to her 'jiemei', she will oways mention my brother- his 'mata kia' (police son)... den will be my youngest bro - his precious piglet... and me??? haha.. nth seems good .. full of prasie for the two sons... but more of complain abt me...

complain of me not helpin her with housechores, she has to help me settle my bills, n i hav been getting some pocket money from her..

i really din wan these to happen as well... i oso hope to be lik last time whereby i hav some stable income, though not alot, but at least i can pay for my own stuff, dun need to get money from my parents, can buy them gifts, bring them out for meals, able to give them some pocket money as well...

i dunu why things are just no coming my way ... i havent got e income i wanted... i tot when i joined tt company. followin them, work hard with them, i can hav a really decent income.. who would noe tt the 2 fellow play such plank! den turned to e current one... tot having a decent income for my expense would be easy... i mean not those big muoney, but at least enuf for my daily... but it's not tt way.. maybe 1st 3 mths, ya, it will definitely be tough, but it's alr half a yr gone, and it's still not moving..

i really dunu wat am i doing??? this shouldn't be e way.. i wan to earn e money tt i decent... i wanna bring my parents out for meals, buy them gifts again.. i dun wanna be carry so much debts, i dun wanna be askin them for money, i dun wanna be a burden to e family.. i wan them to feel proud of me.. not lik now..

i really feel very very sad.... i wan things to change !!!


reported by : small eye Eileen (-v-)...