我比想像中爱你 - JS

不知道怎么了，再fb“闲恍”就来到“他”的page.既然来了就看看咯。怎么知道...有一张照片出现在我眼前-一张婚纱照！！！不是吧？？？他要结婚了？？？

瞬间我愣住了！心中有一股酸，眼泪不禁流下。。。 原来他一直没从我心中离开，原来他在我心中的地位比我想象中的还要重。。。原来我一直没放下。。。原来。。。

http://youtu.be/Huv8ilMkSCM


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bo bee bo bee plsss....

New Year doesnt seems good for Ah Cek & Family... 1st, Cek Gong left, den Ah Cek got a mild stroke suddenly, follow by Kean Boy having fever for a week.... OMG!

Dear Deity,
pls kindly bo bi Ah Cek & Family... Went to visit them today, can feel how worry & upset Lao Sim is... Husband gone, Son had a stroke, Grandson fever... She cant take it, really cant... Pls give them e strength and may the bad goes and good stays...



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Final Farewell - Goodbye Cek Gong!

He's gone... forever~~~

The man whom watch me grow up, who fed me with lots of yummy fishballs, who I called "Cek Gong" -- Gone forever...

Cek Gong passed away on 26 Jan, 3days before CNY... The last time we visited him was a week before he passed on. Was really shocked to see him... so skinny, like only left with a layer of skin wrapping the bone... couldnt regconise him anymore.. it was a heartbreaking scene... We knew in our heart that he cant make it long.. but we prayed for him, hoping that he can make it through the CNY... But ~~~~

on the 26 Jan (Lunar pre-CNY 28th nite) my daddy's phone rang, and the bad news came... it was a heartbreaking news... really dunnu how to react, it happen too fast... too soon... We thought he could have made it through... but no.. he cant..

my whole family went to his wake to offer our last respect to him yesterday... we just couldnt hold back our tears.. especially me.. i keep tearing... when lao sim was toking about the past which involve Cek Gong n me.. i jus couldnt help it but cry...

I tell myself, i have to come for his final send off.. and I'm glad I made it there... Applied leave from company and went with my dad for Cek Gong final send off to bid him a final goodbye...

it was a heartbreaking, heartstopping.. i dunnu wat else to describe but.. just really sad n keep crying.. especially when all his filial children was screaming n crying so loudly n sadly for their beloved father...

It's e same feeling as sending my grandparents off years ago...

But we have to say that he had a good life.. with all his children, grandchildren, sworn brothers, sworn grandsons, fanily & frenz here to send him off his final journey despite it's still CNY season.. and the funeral was a grand one... with the Gong Guan, Da Tou Zai, 5 Merc Cab in line, so many family & frenz... I believe Cek Gong left with peace and happily...

The one regret for me is.. I couldnt offer him my wedding tea... He has been asking if I'm getting married soon? He longed for the wedding tea... but I'm really regretful that I couldnt fufil tt wish of him...

Cek Gong, U have live a great life.. Rest in peace!
U will be missed deeply!

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sickness is horrible!

Sickeness can be so horrifying!

I cant believe my eyes when i saw him.. doesnt look like him anymore! I couldn;t regconise him.. it's like "who is he?" His look totally changes... it's so heartbreaking!

Used to be so strong n loud... now... bedridden, cant even speak proper...His days are numbered... I dun wan to accept this but i have to...

Learnt that he actually was asking about me, asked if i'm getting married soon, he wanted to attend my wedding... i felt a pain in my heart... I'm really sorry that i couldnt make this happen any sooner as i have yet to meet my guy...

I cant forget his face now.. it's so scary how this illness can be.. let's pray for him to be strong and make it through the new year...



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2 years ago, 2 years later today

Just as I thought: "Just leave it, let it be"... things din jus lay low...
I got suspended from selling as i din clock in enuf CPD hours... Just when I tell myself i wanna try again.. haiz...

And just when this happend, someone gave me an offer to a bank... it sounds so attractive!!! and just when i was about to say yes... another person came... someone who made me feel so guilty to...

2 years ago, he approached me to join him, when i almost wanna go with him, someone close to me got me in... I let him down...And now, just when i was about to say yes to the other party, he came into e picture again... giving me e same offer he did 2 years ago, asking me to give myself 1 more chance... he's so sincere... for 2 years you know.. i felt so obligated to join him.. but i'm more attracted by the other... how???

if only he belong to the other... haiz... i really dunnu how to make choices.. and i hate to...

but another problem, if i join him, i let another person down from e same side... I feel so bad!!!

Put off the fire first! .. ya i noe.. but wat's next???
Just let the fire died and the end? or light it up with another flame?? Which flame shuld it be???

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Happy 2011 !!!

Happy New Year!!! It's 2011 already! Oh my! How long have i not blogged??? too busy with work liao :(

ok time for some new year resolution! haha...

Last year i wished for:

So wat do i wan for 2010?
- More Sales
- More income
- Car
- Bring Family to Taiwan for Holiday
- Bring Family to Genting for short trip
- Slim down pls ~~~
- Saving up for my dream cafe
- PLS GRANT ME A BOYFRIEND :)

So wat i acheived???

- more income
- car

yet to do?
- bring family for holiday
- bring family for short trip
- slim down
- save up for dream cafe
- BOYFRIEND :(

hahaha... so this 2011 i shall continue with wat i have yet to acheive...to add on:
2011 i wanna:
- spend more time with family
- spend more time with frenz

HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN !!!!

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Drained ~~~

I'm so tired... seriously!!!
What I am i doing sia? Doing so many jobs, working so hard yet not spending any... so xin ku for wat?

My life is only left with work work n work... haven't have a good rest.. i miss my frenz!!! I really do... Qns is... WHERE ARE MY FRENZ??? seems to have alot, but when i pick up my mobile phone, i actually have no numbers to call...

I'm missed out from gatherings, shopping, dinner etc.. I'm out of my frenz list!

OMG !!! I'm tired.. but i feel that i still need to carry on this kind of life... WORK n dun spend... REASON? I wanna save for my big dream, my target, my goal...
But must i sacrifies like that>? Worth it?

I dunnu... CArry on till i have the answer to it ba...

Dear Frenz,
Pls do keep me in your mind, your outing list.. Dun leave me out!!! Though i may b really busy, packed with work, but i do wanna be invited or ask to go out! I need the company to move on~~~ I dun wanna be ALONE!

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