Happy 21st Birthday Jaymie

It's Jaymie's 21st Birthday celebration !!! oh time flies ~~~ we are 21 le ~~ haha
She hold her party at Sentosa Costa Sand Resort... i nearly lost my way there and i can tell u, Sentosa has got a brand new look !!! i really cant tell it;s e Sentosa i used to go !!! haha....

One thing i muz confess, i went in illegally !!! hahaha.. yes, i went in w/o paying a single cent !!! how did i do it??? No i din hide, i walk in upbright !!! hahaha.... ok, i still tot we would take e Sentosa Bus from Harbour Front, den make our admission payment when we reach Sentosa... haha... so i went on board the bus... nobody check me... and i;m e only person in tt big big bus!!! haha... When i arrive Sentosa, alighted at Beach Carpark.... i phoned Jaymie to see where she actually located... den i just walk in to find... yeah... so i went into Sentosa w/o payment s single cent and i really dunnu why??? haha.. not deliberly okie.. i really dunnu ma...

okie, enuf of the amazing arrival.. haha...

Jaymie hold a BBQ party at the pool side.... Some of my relatives and cousins were there to extend our wishes... Her parents, ( My aunty & uncle) her secondary schoolmates (oso mine), her neighbour (oso mine), her frenz (some i oso noe), her boyfrend (he has got nth to do with me.. haha) were all there... We just sit ard chit chatting, eating... and i busily go ard entertainin the guest who mostly i noe oso.. haha..

Then her cake cutting session and of cos the phototaking session!!!!!! Her parents gave her a really sweet necklace which they put on for her.. haha.. lik she say, really lik she getting marry lik tt.. haha.. her boyfrenz gave her a nice bouquet of red roses, and of cos it goes with a sweet dearly kiss on her cheek !!! oh~~ tt's so sweeettt !!!

The neighbour actually planned to throw her into the pool but her boyfrenz say dun do that so we forgot the idea.. haiz.. haha... Jaymie, thanks Wilfred for saving u , if not u wuld hv been drenched !!! haha

some photos to share ~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEETIE SUGAR HONEY !!!

and oso to her dad whose bday is today!!! Happy Birthday "Gu Zhan" !!! haha.. and yes, i'll see u again on my 21st in Dec !!! haha

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spot my mistake point them out to me !!!!

mistake spotted again... I'm still no good enuf... haiz.... could it be tt i'm too honest tt i never tot of bargaining with suppliers, or is it just tt i really didn't think for the company, never think of way to help save money for the company???

I nv noe how to bargain, nv noe how to ask ppl to return money to me... tt's y i din do it at work...but tt doesn't mean i nv think for the company leh... i noe i not good enuf but did i do my best? maybe the answer u give is no, no enuf.... haiz...

sometime taking benefits from company or from others can be kind of pressure too... It's like u owe it to someone... even if tt person say no worry, it's ok and it's just a privillege or welfare... but u noe it urself tt u still owe it to tt person, tt flavour... but sometimes, u just find it hard or u cant reject the gesture... it maybe u really cant afford but yet u really desire, or u just cant find reason to reject the gesture... in any cases, i just wan to do my best to repay wat i've been given...

I started to feel stress, i have been givin myself pressure. I noe I've been given alot of opportunity to learn to prove and to be better, but i cant seems to have improved... I start to fear. I've been pinned with high hope, with really good opportunity ahead.. I wan to grab it tight, hold it for long and make it mine.. but am i capable to hold it ? Am i capable to own it???

I wan to be an outstandin person, one who can stand above many... i wan to be someone who can make decision for myself and for others and i mean great decisions.... since young, i nv noe how to make decision, everytime i encounter problems, i would seek help, seek advise from anyone, everyone.. nv once think and solve it myself... this is not the person i wanna be...

Since a kid, i've been taken to compare with others as the weaker one.. the person beside me oways shine... why can't i shine instead??? Dun i have my rays ??? maybe i really lose on the outlook but i really dun think tt will stop my rays ~~~ stop blocking my rays, stop preventin me from shinning !!! It's time i shine ~~~

I wanna be someone good, make my family feel proud of me, enuf of hardship for my parents... I have to be the kind of person i wanna be... am i improving and working towards it ??? i really hope i am... and i'm still workin towards it...

Thanks for pointin me out and guidin me thru ... u guys are the lighthouse of mine... i believe with ur guidness and my preservance... i will make it to who i wanna be !!!!
keep pointin my mistakes to me, i really cant see them myself and really need ur eyes to help me... if u do spot my mistake, pls pls point them out to me and guide me along !!!

I wanna work towards my goal, be the person i wanna be~~~ I WANT I WANT AND I WILL !!!!


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wat will i get?

Oh lucky Evelyn !!!!

My new colleague Evelyn joined us today...yeah!!! We are bigger now !!! hehe... She used to be our neighbouring sales but now, she's one of us !!! Welcome aboard!!!! She had a really good start today!!! Woo~~~ She closed 2 sales,with the help of Brem, today !!! Wat a lucky first day, I'm happy for her, at least she can prove herself now !!! JiaYou gal !!!! haha... really lucky leh, i still remb last time i only manage to close a sales after 2mths almost 3mths... hahaha ~~~~

And today~~~ i lost a sale.... yes... bye bye to my sales... ('"_"')... so wanna cry... Evelyn closed 2 while i lost my only one.. *****wahhhh wahhhhh soobbbb soobbbb**** not anybody's fault, just that the loan didn't get approved.... But i still pay commission to the person who intro this sales to me... cus i tot he had helped me alot in this case and i think i shuld pay him for tt la.. though i didn't get any commission, i think i wuld feel better if i give him la.. haha... hopefully he can intro more to me nxt time.. hehe

Call Alvin Tan, e aeroplane, today.. wah lao..he nv fail to make my day.. nv fail to make me luff head off.. hahaha... wanted to arrange a day to meet my Kor Kor Vincent to discuss abt work but he make me luff till hor.. hahaha... he said i made his day again, well, i guess it's e other way round! hahaha

I feel so dilema abt the word L.O.V.E.... it a word that can make someone smile and also a word which can make someone cry over~~~~ wat exactly is LOVE??? I so wanna be in love, to have someonewith u, showing u love care concern. And someone who u can confide to, luff and cry together, accompany u thru out... But on e other hand, I've seen love which make someone so miserable over it, cry over it, hate over it... It make me wanna love yet fear to love... Haiz...

Fews days ago, my galfrenz shared with me on her miserable relationship, she cried thru out the nite... I feared relationship then... Today, I see a man happy toking abt his galfrenz, wearing a very very sweet smile while sharing.... I so looked forward to a relationship....

A coin has 2 side, so is relationship... which side will i get??? wait paitently n the answer will be out someday....
Will i ever get loved? wuld it be smile (^0^) or a misery ('''-_-''')????

Anyway, congrate to Evelyn for a great beginner start, Thank u Alvin for makin my day and... awaiting a love which make me smile (^o^)


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3rd driving lesson...

My 3rd lesson...hahaha... i guess i didnt do well lor.. haha... 'zi chia' many times today .. the most times ever..., hahaha... maybe cuz today in main road and lots of car, slow traffic, plus me coordination no good.. ahaha... hey, tt made up to alot of prob sia ! haha

ok la, not tt bad afterall la.. i told my instructor today i very bad, but he say no la, cuz wat we learn today is very difficult de, for a 3rd time driving, it's ok.. cannot day good or bad now, only when 10 lessons later den can tell de.. haha... hooo.. thx arh!!!but he very relaxtoday, he was plucking his beard while i drive.. haha

and i jus drive n drive till i dun even noe where am i... only to find the road name Aljunied, paya lebar and i spotted SingPost Centre.. haha... the industrial park is horrible place to drive.. haha... i guess i distruted alot of big vehicles today.. hahaha

i will be better with more practise okie !!!

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gals,dun cry !

Oh my poor gal, dun cry..not worth crying for such a man!!! My heart sunk when u called me at 4am in e morning crying ur heart out.... oh gal, if it's really has to be over, let it go, dun be 'bu gan yuan', dun be filled with hatred...

If he no longer deserve ur love, let go... the longer u hold on, the more u will be hurt.. chosse the path u feel best for u... Love can me no ration, no right no wrong answer.. if u think u can still entrust ur happiness to him, he can be forgiven and worth a second chance, u noe u will be happy with him, let carry on... if not, let it go..Folow wat ur heart tells u...

Dun cry gal, a man shuld not let a gal cry this way.. shuld not let a gal travel to his place at 2am in the morning to give him a piece of mind, to cry her heart out in front of him and yet kena a attitute reply...

Gal, it's not worth it... Be the happy & cheerful gal soon again !!!
remember, shuld u need a listen hear, a shoulder, i'm jus a phone call away !!!

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different path from u

hmm... intruder is still intruding my dreamland.. haha ~~~ well, dun bother abt it.. cuz it's just dream..


Wah, can't believe it, COE dropped like some maddness thing !!! Cat A is only $9,501 !!!! OMG, eye dropped !!! Sell more car, more car, tml till Monday got Rdshow @ AML Atrium, sell sell sell sell !!!

Haiz, why am i still kind of no life sia? i mean no social life, still working working working.. the people i hang out with colleagues, customers, hahaha.... the people i hanbg out with is so different from those my frenz of same age hang out with.. haha They gather to seek fun, while i gather with these people to gain knowledge.. haha..

Had been into this kind of life since the day i left school, joining the working life... everytime when frenz ask me: " u not sian arh ? so young but nv go out for all those fun, oways work and hang out woth those overage, u not sian arh ?"

well, i felt so sad when i heard these comment from my frenz last time.. really thought to myself, i really wastin my time, wasting my youth, nv enjoy my life during youth ? Really envy my frenz who can enjoy their life everyday.. go shopping, movie, ktv, makan, dating... but i only hav work, meeting, work, meeting.. hardly shop, seldom movie, didnt ktv, no dating... hahaha

thinking back, thinking again... yes, i may hav lose the most precious moment of my life - youth, but i gain alot more than my frenz.. alot of lives experiences, office polictics, human interation, life skills... hahaha.. ok, u might find me crappy.. but i began to like my life...

so now i wanna say this again ~~~
Frenz, dun worry about me, i know my life is so different from all of u, different lifestyle but i'm sure i never regret this path i choose.. though very different from all of u.. but i noe i can do it and for so long, i think i'm handling well.... I have great Mentors guiding me through, and i'm learning alot alot.. a tough n hard journey but i am doing well with this ! I wanna achieve something in my life..I wanna achieve my goal as soon as i can !!!

frenz, jiayou for me okie!!!





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can man be trused?

cut my hair short short le.. but that doesn't get rid of the thing that has been botherin me !!! Ya, him him him !!!! Cant get rid ~~ WHY???

It's been so long le, nv contact, nv think, nv mention, but all of a sudden, he jus appear in my dream again!!! I dun feel lik draggin anymore, but it's not within my control.. what is happening to me??? I dunnu since when he intruded my life... I dunnu how it started, how he affect me... I tot it was just a moment of crush... as time goes by things will go back to normal, especially when we have so little contact or even no contact till some rare occassion...

Whenever the thought of a relation, he will be the one who came to my mind.. But does this explain my feeling for him? I dun think this is the way to explain rite? haha...

So many love stories happened around me, some give me the hope that true love do exist in this world, true man do exist for woman to entrust their life & love. Man who truely love their one & only woman whole heartedly... but there's stories of so many unhappy relationships, those of man who left their woman for another. Those who took woman as toys, just toyin them and left after they had enuf fun...

Can man still be trusted? Man, can u still be trusted? Can woman still dream of having a 'happily ever after' relationship? Can my dream go on?

Sometime, i just feel so lonely, really envy those who are in relationship, having their boy or gal who keep them accompany... seeing the husbands who dote on their wifes so much, the girlfriend who love their boy so much, so sweet to them... I oso longed for one who can keep me company from those loneliness...

But on a 2nd thoughts of those unhappy ones... Man who dump their gal, who toy around with other gals, man who two time....

I really asked myself, can the person in my mind be trusted? even though there is really nothing between us, and i dun think there will be, but i just come to think of it... Can he be trusted? Can man still be trusted???

~~~muffins watchie~~~

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