spot my mistake point them out to me !!!!

mistake spotted again... I'm still no good enuf... haiz.... could it be tt i'm too honest tt i never tot of bargaining with suppliers, or is it just tt i really didn't think for the company, never think of way to help save money for the company???

I nv noe how to bargain, nv noe how to ask ppl to return money to me... tt's y i din do it at work...but tt doesn't mean i nv think for the company leh... i noe i not good enuf but did i do my best? maybe the answer u give is no, no enuf.... haiz...

sometime taking benefits from company or from others can be kind of pressure too... It's like u owe it to someone... even if tt person say no worry, it's ok and it's just a privillege or welfare... but u noe it urself tt u still owe it to tt person, tt flavour... but sometimes, u just find it hard or u cant reject the gesture... it maybe u really cant afford but yet u really desire, or u just cant find reason to reject the gesture... in any cases, i just wan to do my best to repay wat i've been given...

I started to feel stress, i have been givin myself pressure. I noe I've been given alot of opportunity to learn to prove and to be better, but i cant seems to have improved... I start to fear. I've been pinned with high hope, with really good opportunity ahead.. I wan to grab it tight, hold it for long and make it mine.. but am i capable to hold it ? Am i capable to own it???

I wan to be an outstandin person, one who can stand above many... i wan to be someone who can make decision for myself and for others and i mean great decisions.... since young, i nv noe how to make decision, everytime i encounter problems, i would seek help, seek advise from anyone, everyone.. nv once think and solve it myself... this is not the person i wanna be...

Since a kid, i've been taken to compare with others as the weaker one.. the person beside me oways shine... why can't i shine instead??? Dun i have my rays ??? maybe i really lose on the outlook but i really dun think tt will stop my rays ~~~ stop blocking my rays, stop preventin me from shinning !!! It's time i shine ~~~

I wanna be someone good, make my family feel proud of me, enuf of hardship for my parents... I have to be the kind of person i wanna be... am i improving and working towards it ??? i really hope i am... and i'm still workin towards it...

Thanks for pointin me out and guidin me thru ... u guys are the lighthouse of mine... i believe with ur guidness and my preservance... i will make it to who i wanna be !!!!
keep pointin my mistakes to me, i really cant see them myself and really need ur eyes to help me... if u do spot my mistake, pls pls point them out to me and guide me along !!!

I wanna work towards my goal, be the person i wanna be~~~ I WANT I WANT AND I WILL !!!!


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