how hurtful !!!

I'm so so so MAD !!!!

Stupid WRX, ya, u think u oways so right.. who do u think u are to say me lik tt... huh? Ya, u wanted to woo this gal, but she kind of ignorin u now, u blame me... wat has it gotta do with me ? Juz becuz I'm toop busy to answer ur call to hear u pour ur problems these days ?

Right from the start when u told me tt u like her and u wanna be with her, i already told u to go for her,make ur move... but u jus refused.. U said u scare, u no confident... U asked me for all e advise all e gal point of views, i shared all with u.. U called me every now & then, meet me every now & then to pour ur sorrow, ur problems... i lent u my listening ears & had given u all my fullest support.... Been to Sentosa with u to hunt for The Cliff , so tt u can plan for her bday dinner with u... Listened to u tok, to u pour ur problem, helped u to find solution, given u advise... Even wanted to help u send the sms u dare not send, ( u choose to be angry over it, though e sms was not even sent out)

I've told u tt i jus took over another role at work, added responsiblity & work load. Becuz of that i really got no time to pick up my handphone..U are not e only one who got those unanswered calls.. many others got them too ( Right frenz out there ?).... And becuz i did not pick up e call, u said i shuld at least call back or send u an sms ... Hey, i picked up yday, and u were jus tokin soem crapp lik " oh I'm so happy.. ya ya.. " den when i ask anything u wana say u said "no... " when i request to put down e call cuz i've work on hand u said "wah.. u dun wanna tok to me lor".. Hey, it's workin hour, and i hav work to do.. if u hav things to share with me, i would hav put on my ear pieces and listen to u.. but u said nth.. so should i carry on with my work ?

Today, u called, i din pick up... I'm clearin my work, how would i noe if u are calling again jus for fun.. if u really hav prob u wish to share, u could hav drop me an sms and i will pick up ur call... but u nv said anything.. jus one missed call and i get all ur blame for ignoring u these days... hey, cant u understand ?

Best part, u msn me sayin " u'll be happier if she totally ignore me ".. Hey wat a thing to say... Am i tt sort of person? I'm tt kind of Bitch to u ? She ignorin u , my fault ? Why should i be happy if she ignore u ??? Dun sounds as if i like u when i'm not... Be fair to me.. Wat a thing to comment abt me... u say I'm ur good frenz, but u comment such thing abt me.. u noe how much it hurts ?

U said u have put in alot of effort, time , money & hope on her... u scare u will lose her.. But u have never make any move nor action to make things clear to her.. u keep asking people ard u.. when we give u feedback to go ahead, make ur moves, u stay put with a " scare, no confident"... den when evry other got fed-up, scold u n ignore u, u pushed everything to me...

Hey, they are e one who ignore u, why dun u throw ur temper and give them ur piece of mind? why am i e only one who get all these ? Say i nv ask u lik "wat's wrong with u ".. den can u pls touch ur heart and ask urself, hav u every ask abt me ? u oways share with me all ur prob, i listened to every singel of them.. but hav u every think, ever come across ur mind that i os have my prob which i wanted to share too.. hav u ever offer to lent me ur listening ears ? NO.. u never... u said u did ask me "how r u" and i oways say "I'm ok" and u jus take it tt i'm ok... ya.. wat a easy way.. u oways assume u r e only one with prob, i hav to be there for u, lent u my listenin ears, pick up ur calls, reply ur sms...Hey I'm not ur Girlfriend mind u...

Many had misunderstood and thought u r my boyfriends already... and u just keep foolin with them & say "ya".. hey, u r not ! I'm still looking for a boyfriend ok, i have my freedom to llok for one and make frenz.. dun oways tie me down to answer ur call, to listen to u, to meet u everytime....

u could have jus speak ur mind to HER... wat's e use of sms me at 4am in e morning say "i really wanna be with her".. wat's e use of keep telling me, how much u like her, how muchu wanna be with her, how much u dun wanna lose her.. I;ve told u time & again, TELL ALL THAT TO HER, NOT ME !!! u jus say " scare, no confident".. den everyday tell me u very sad, u very down...

Told u to put some heart into it and not only monetary.. u said u did not give only monetary,.. den can i ask... why u buy her expensive gifts. bring her to expensive high class place for meals, sending her to & fro work (lik a princess), reserves a table at The Clif (sentosa) which costs $200 per pax for her bday meal, gave her a sub-card (creditcard), thinkin of buyin her a car... If u hav all e courage to do all these, den why not jus tell her straight that u like her. and get an answer.. rather den spendin so much w/o any answer...

Ya, i've told u many many many times.. but u dun listen and today, i duun wat's wrong with u, jus throwin everything to me.. FINE FINE FINE.. blame me for all that... for not picking up ur calls, not toking as much to u when we meet, not lenting u my listening ears, not there for u when u r down.. my fault ok...

and this is how u treat me - ur so call good friends.... ya.. all ignore u but only i get all these.. Wat a 'pleassure' , a 'honour'...

u jus dunnu how much u have hurt someone who have treated u with 100% support & friendship... u jus hurt deeply !!!

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我是幸福的！

Busy busy day ~~~ 3 referer case came into showroom today, interested in buying cars... and I helped to serve one of them ... A very cool gal - WeiZhi ~~~ hahaha... I hope i can close her deal,I'm putting my heart into this deal and looking forward for more !!!

Jeremy sent me home today, ( yday was Brem.. haha).. Jeremy confessed that he had GF liao, i told him i already noe.. hahahaha... He was surprised and even more surprise when I told him i noe WHO tt gal is... hahaha... Aiyo, he tok so happily jus now... Keep laughing & laughin... so xing fu !!! hahaha.... Actually, brem told me yday tt Jeremy got GF le, and surprised e whole family.. He then said now e whole family all couple liao, only left his youngest sister & me.. ME ??? i guess he muz have really treated me just like his own sister liao !!! hahaha... So honoured !!! hahaha

Aiyo... 我也好想恋爱哦！！！可是我的缘分似乎还没到~~~ 每当说到这儿，就会想起"他"~
快21岁了，还得一个人过吗??? 21岁生日还会是单身吗???不要啦！！！

In e meantime, lik wat my 'kor kor' say: "有没有情人不重要，重要的是要有钱！" haha
nvm abt no BF now, i have other form of loves though... so many ppl dote on me, i'm already more luckier than any other ppl le, cuz these are the EXTRA love i got which others dun have !!!
就凭这一点，我就比很多人幸福多了！！！因为我得到的爱比别人还多~
hehe -- again, I'm LUCKY EILEEN ~~~
Muackx to all !





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New challenge!!!

Had quite an enjoyable night yday... haha.. met up with MeiYan, after so long.. muhaha... together with Weng Hong & Michelle ( Si Si )... hahaha... we met at Central Starbucks and from nowhere, a green caterpillar crawled on my hands.... i let it slowly crawl onto e table.. GUESS WAT HAPPEN NEXT ??? some one scream very very very loud !!!
ARGHHHH !!!! who who who ??? Ms Chen MeiYan !!! hahaha... ( MeiYan, dun kill me for leakin this out!!! ). All thanks to the caterpillar, Weng Hong named me a " TREE" !!! (-_-") We then travelled in a wonderful Audi A4--- to Mount Faber, Faber rock ! hahaha.. The brownie with chocolate ice-cream taste heavenly !!! yum yum !!!

Time to be back with the FIGHTERsss !!!

Had quite a long day at work today.. Rec'd a happy news --- My buddy Stanley & his wife Mariko has a new member in their family today !!! hahaha.. Yea, Riko gave birth to their baby boy... Both Mum & baby share the SAME BIRTHDAY !!!! ~ CoOl ~

So many things to clear at work, the files are abit disorgainse, abit headache for me.... dunnu where to start.. haha.. but nvm, I noe will get it orgainse well de.. give me abit of time ! hahaha
jiayou jiayou jiayou !!!

Haha, but now i really learn more.. I've got a clearer picture of how e whole car sales process is.. hahaha !!! After things get organise, I'll be back in sales... more confident liao ! hahaha




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new scope, new responsiblity

My new job scope... begins today~~~ not new job la !!! hahaha...

More responsiblities for me... I'm given e role of the inside operation, meaning to say, I'm doing e paper works & other inside work, while Jeremy take charge of the outside sales operations... Overall in charge still Brem la.. Now e pie is 30% on Brem, 30% on Jeremy & 30% on Me, the rest of the 10% shared by the other salesman...

Some say i demote to do admin job, some say i promote into e air-con room... For me, I take it as an opportunity ... I'm able to learn more things ~~~ Now i noe how e outside sales operation is, and I've given this chance to move in to do the back end operation... I get a change to feel e whole car sales operation.. I believe this way, it will help me alot alot.. I get to understand better & start to find interest again...

Still mus thank Brem for givin me this opportunity la... Thank for e regonition & entrusting me with different tasks. Brem said this to me " "好好的跟着我，看我怎么做事，怎么处事待人。慢慢的学，以后有更大，更多的事放给你做，你也会没问题！"。。。
真的能感受到他对我的认同，他的那份真心想栽培我。我和感激也会努力，不会让他失望也要证明我可以！

Way to go Eileen !!!!

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I'm a survivor !!!

"小妹，你是这里的 Survivor leh !" hahaha.... "大嫂" told me this jus now...hahaha.. u noe wat it means??? Starmotor started with quite a few sales staff, but slowly 1 by 1 left, now only me still here with Starmotor ( excludin Jeremy as he special case.. haha )... So, I'M A SURVIVOR!!!

This morning Brem said to me " 这个月还可以“dong”吗???"
I told him: "可以，不可以的话我早就回 SingTel le .... "
Brem: "你有plan要回去啊??? "
Me: "没有啦，是他们要我回，可是我没有答应。。。 你要我回去啊???
Brem: "没有啦，我要你跟着你"老爸"和"大哥"一起"过去"，现在我是把你放在这里当做BMT"
Me: "放心啦，我没有要回去SingTel"

With that, I guess I will not return to SingTel for now la.... Though there's opportunities for me to join back SingTel & it's dept which i desire or shuld say i "once desired" to go to but can't...Now tt e opportunity is given to me... but i guess.... abit late, time is not right now...I'd so much wanted to go over to that dept but was rejected by HR, with no other option and i really culdnt stay in e prev. dept of mine under tt woman, i had no choice, but made a painful decision to leave SingTel - my beloved company....

Now that I'd left, they opened up the door for me to join tt dept which i longed for... Though I'm really happy and really have e kind of "冲动" to return.. but for my character... i think alot... For others, i guess they will jus say "ok, i'll return since it's e place i had longed for and since e current car sales mkt is so quiet, i think gg back to SingTel is a good option, moreover,it's e ppl to wants u to go back !"

For me, ya, it'll be really nice to go back since car sales isnt doin very well for me... but, frankly speaking, though i really didnt make good money from here, but in this short 3mths, I've learnt alot of others stuff which SingTel have not provided me thru out my 4 years there... And for tt 4years in SingTel, i was not aprreaciated till I finally resigned & left, only then they realise ME... I should say, it's kind of.. sad right???

In starmotor, it's different... I was approached here by Brem cuz he see e good workin attitute in me and regconised me... I'm being appreciated, i got e prasie as well as e scoldings i deserved... Moreover, Starmotor is givin me lots of opportunities & exposure for me togain experience & learn... Though i still have feel for SingTel, and to be frank, car sales is not my interest, but i still choose to stay.. Stay and keep learning and absorbin new skills, new exposure.. grabin each opportunites & do my very best to complete e tasks entrusted to me.. I willing to stick & follow Brem for my career path... I believe in him, i believe in my choice...

SingTel--- oways in my heart, oways e ideal company for me, still a place i call HOME.. I dun put off e idea of returning to SingTel, but maybe not so soon bah.... Let me explore abit more ofe outside world, i guess i have not explore enuf.... My SingTel pal, will u be disappointed with my decision? Will u have my support? Will e door be open for me still in future ?

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confused mind ~~~

OFF DAY !!! again SingTel day.. hahaha

Met Jason Chu for lunch hahaha... he wanted to buy Honda Airwave, so ask me abt the details... had a nice chatting time with him... He kept his hair shorter now, and still looks cute with the black flame specs... hahaha... i told him Telesales offer a post for me, and he encourage me to accept it... I dunnu if i shuld but he say it's a good deal, shuld take it !!! And he paid for e lunch~~~ I wanted to pay for e lunch, but he insist... He say will let me treat him if i come back to SingTel (-_-")....

After the lunch, I met ShuShan ( prev. from SingTel CRC ). She's now in HSBC - Financial Planner.... We had a nice catching up @ cineleisure - Xing Wang HK cafe... hahaha.. She say she shocked to learn abt my resign tt time, and she said Jacelynn had complain to her that w/o me, things were difficult.. haiyo, What is CPE doing ????

Clement called me just now, had a long chat on e phone... he pointed out that my heart seems to be in SingTel still, say he saw my heart lying in the lobby... hahaha... crap la!

Daryl asked to meet me for dinner, while waiting for him, I saw Andy outside Hello!shop, den Elyn & Daryl came... so 4 of us went for dinner together lor.. Andy looked cute with his backpack-- going for class la... He ask me if i have BF le ma-- too bad, still dun hav, ask him to intro, he intro himself to me.. hahaha.. he still remb my father's fruits's stall sia.. still eyeing for that... I didn't noe he wear specs, ask him to wear for me to see, he say he will wear for me to see when i come back to SingTel- He say if i willing to come back, he confirm hire me... hahaha....
wah.... how shuld i say ? He say he give me 1 mths' time to consider and he sounded really serious!

Many askin me to come back singtel, and i'm gettin emo & sentimental abt it liao.... But it's been so much thoughts tt i decided to leave & join Star... Though coming back it's gonna be a different dept, but i just felt tt i'll be like very flickler minded lor.... leave & come back, leave & come back... I had fear too... I scare u guys think too highly of me but if it turns out tt i dun meet ur expectation den how? And I cannot leave Starmotor lik tt... How am i going to face Brem ?
Am i thinking too much abt wat they say ??? maybe they jus givin causal comment only but i read too much into it ??? hahaha... Let fate decide bah.... I admit i do have a 'chong dong' to go back to SingTel, but I'm oso waiting for another thing to happen... haiz...

reported by : small eye Eileen (-v-)...

changes ...

Finally settled Samuel's customer.... She collected her car today.. woo ~~~ CAse closed!
Learnt on how to do a proper hand over today with the guidance of Brem... but, still commit some minor mistake la... Mistake made, lesson learnt!

It's seems that there's going to be somemore staff movement happening in Starmotor...

Today's 'life-lesson' from Brem: "Even if it's e smallest thing u do, do it whole heartedly, other will feel it... It's not all abt e speed u perform, but the quality of work u done. Put ur heart into e task u given. "

U cant imagine how much i gain from here... I may not be earning alot, but i really learnt alot, much more than wat i expect !!!

End of e day, Brem & Jeremy had a "close door talk"... Had actually planned to go Taka shoppin with Jeremy de, but they still stuck in e room, so i left at 8plus... cuz i guess he oso no mood to go shop le.. haha... Tml is my off day !!! yeah !!! haha..how long have i NOT gone on off day leh ? hmm.. nvm abt tt la.. hahaha.. i dun mind not takin off... but this time i abit tired le, need a little break, so .... haha...

I had a 40mins work out today ! hahaha... 20mins of slow jog, 10mins of incline seat cycling, 10mins of air walker... wah !!! so refreshing -- wonderful .. haha, thanks to Sandy, we meet again tml for more workout okok!

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